J e r e m y R y a n

on the way back home from tampines a long journey on bus 81... i kept thinking about what this indian old-timer told me about life...

had dinner with mrs snow after work earlier on... it felt really good, like u know how u wanna go home & rest n just die on bed after a lame day after IAP... but to be with her just eating & walking around despite sweating kinda cured the siansation in me... well, i really hope this last a long long time... i'm sure all my homies know i aint wanna play no more. i'm serious this time :) i really do. so after sending her back, i went over to alf's side for a "last chit chat talk cock session". my bro's gonna be at thailand for a damn long 3 weeks man... so weird, but i know i'll be missing him. he's my bro afterall... bon voyage alf. take care.

now... while alf was telling me about his cousin vin & gf sheryn... in the midst of talking, this old timer came to talk to us outta the blue... he said to me "life will be fun, smooth sailing if u take it easy & relax... if u wanna think so much n dun let go of certain stuff, it will haunt u n hold u back... y bother about so much problems, thinking so much when u can just live in the moment... sitting down with friends are most impt, as u can tell them ur problems. but, not all your friends are friends, most of them can go fuck off. u're still young, i've past ur phase in life... trust me my frd, take it slowly... learn to enjoy life. its all about U deciding how u wanna pass it as the years goes by..."

all i did was just to "lookout" for his smoking table outta courteousy as he asked me before he went to pee. yeah he was drinking, but defintely sober to the max. so he kinda overheard the conversation between alf n i on vin's issue which is kinda not important, but will comment about it shortly... & the best part was, before kev & gf came to meet us, he told me, "i like u boy, u are a jolly lad who's very relax about life." hmmm... yeah i guess this is wat most ppl think when they see me or know me for a while... everyone thinks jr's so chilled like eski bar.. well only i know it myself if i'm chilled anot, but i dun deny, demons are haunting me every other night too.

regarding vin's issue... apparently a 3rd party came between sheryn & him... n tat guy told vin, "i only know sheryn for 1 month but i can capture her heart, U ARE USELESS" hmmm by right, by law i guess i'll fucking punch him straight in his jaw. dun fuck with me will be my wake up call (sheesh, i sound like a rapper LOL :p) but i dunno leh, i think even by punching him, if i was his situation, sheryn might not also give a damn about me? hmmm well if this really happen, do i follow wat the timer said & let it go? this is a open discussion, feel free to leave comments on my cbox. thank you.

lastly, thank you for all the comments, fiona, jo, viv, winx... although winx's not really related at all... but its kinda heart warming, when i recieve comments from my frds... it shows, they really do give a fuck by reading my stuff... thank you so much.. gotta still say this before i sleep, BRO TAKE FUCKING GOOD CARE OF URSELF. it's thailand w/o us, me & ben. 3 weeks aint short bro. i am gonna miss u.

ps: this is just for mrs snow, i know we just started, not even the honeymoon thingy over yet or wat... but i really wanna build a damn good foundation... i'm just the typical virgo perfectionist. so to everyone, if i appear too rash or impatient or watever crap... if i did piss any of u off, sincerely my apologies...

good night, TGIF. IAP week 10... finally... tmd~

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:08 AM

can't stop thoughts filling my head;

i think i'll start blogging more nowadays.... having her in my life is so different... for someone who's always relax & happy go lucky, being a in relationship makes me think n think... sigh, is it good or bad?


happy birthday baby... hope u had your best birthday of your life.

picture perfect... ben alf & es with my baby... thanks alot guys... never peeled more prawns before, it was one of the best seafood outings cum birthday celebration...

ok apparently i just woke up outta the blue... yeah i dun have to wake up until 8+ however i dunno wat just got me up, u know "snap snap, just like that?" i think i'm just being a typical virgo who thinks so much... there are 3 ppl that i can actually relate to upon going into this relationship i can think right now... this 3 ppl are my "nu-ers/daugthers" Val, Jas, Yan... i'm their abpp (as u know, ah beng papa) & they were kinda surprised to know they finally have a almm (ah lian mama) ya, but's she not even 1% ahlian... this 3 girls i know... they "showed" me their relationships, how they handle them. to be honest, all 3 are very experience with bgrs, can i say this? coz i think most of the times when shit happens, i'm there drinking or chilling with them somehow or rather. so i'm just trying to relate my bgr like any other bgr... i outta be enjoying my "honeymoon" period & not thinking of anything else am i right? i just cant stop thinking... argh crap, how many times did i repeat this sentence already? jeez... the almighty JR is kinda pathetic talking to this "huge comment box" right now...

here's something i got from an email -

8. Sit on ur jealousy.

All of us go thru' spells of insecurity at the beginning of the relationship, but don't translate that insecurity into jealousy. If u're gonna go through ur partner's mail and cupboard, and eavesdropping on conversations, u know something is wrong - with u!!! Jealousy is like a poison that slowly spreads thru' the relationship before finall y killing it. Trust ur partner; love has to have trust in it.

i think i'm prolly go back to sleep after blogging... now behind the snowman face of mine, here comes emotions that any normal human will go through... & this song is ringing at the back of my head..

"The smile on your face let me know that you need me

There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall

You say it best, when you say nothing at all…"

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 4:54 AM

January
In the Month of the Ox, your stamina, self-control, and determination are especially strong. Patience in frustrating situations will win admiration and ultimate success. If you do not overreact, you will be better liked and more effective. People want to help you achieve your goals. Being flexible can open unexpected doors. Do not take on more responsibility than you can handle this month, especially near the New Moon on January 18. In love, you prefer to show you how you feel rather than talking about it. Make more of an effort to talk about your feelings. Believe in the dreams you want to create. Spending time with children or light-hearted people is recommended. All work and no play drains the joy out of your days. Do your best to lighten up and live a more balanced and optimistic life. It is not necessary to expect disappointment. Positive expectations create positive results.
taken from msn.com

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 4:16 PM

have been on mc for the past 2 days. feels gd to eat snake once in a while, actually i'm perfectly fit & everyone knows that. but who cares? i dun give a damn. do i? anyway i think the lord's been great to me. i had the 9th or the 10th ball behind my ear & it's burst so early this time around... planning for it to burst on wednesday so thurs & fri i can geng... but tmd, burst on monday so no choice geng tues weds. what to do? i'm being paid $420 not $4200. obviously if i'm getting paid 4.2k i'll give u my 4.2k attitude & work rate & not 420 la. too bad, this company is full of shit so i'm just adding more shit to it. dun waste my time bitch. just tahan until Feb 17th... yes i can do it. i belive so. lol. anyway... i dunno if my bros still read my blog... u know me la, the genting trip that was supposedly on with ur camp mates i dun give a big fuck coz i dunno them, but to me is if 1 of u not going, might as well dun go right? genting's always open. but ben if u decide to go with them & knowing u still can smoke n drink for the month then oh well, have fun in genting. i'm got more stuff to think of now... how much i would like to play also. but i dun think i can enjoy it as much as if we 3 are going right? koh samui '07 man. trust me. it will be another hellacious trip. our backpacking is always gd la. no normal human will take car, bus, walk & boat for their travel. only we will... so if u're going genting have fun. oh man... before i end, thank you for answering my prayers. u've been very kind to me i really appreciate it. thank you for blessing me with a gd start to the year. thank you. amen.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 1:44 AM

JR's new year resolution for 2007

1. cut down on cigs = smoke less or don't smoke... (beneficial for my health)

2. NO, and strictly NO more tattooos...

3. Drink lesser...

4. Vulgarities are a nonono (esp my fav Fuck word) very unrefined?

5. try to avoid late nights : 5 reasons why sleep is good for me

-immunity booster, smarter with sleep, beauty sleep, ditch the pounds, healthy heart.

*sleep deprivation causes carbo to metabolise slower leading to accumulation of sugar & body fats! O_O

6. has anyone told u that i'm very hot tempered? (it takes 17 muscles to smile & 43 to frown...)

7. DUN SOOO AH BENG CAN?!

here u have it, my resos from someone special, i just typed it out.. however i'll add to the list on my own... here it goes..

8. Work Hard & Smart during NS period.

9. be a good son, brother, friend, snowman & so on... :)

10. erm this is more of a wish than a reso... make tons of dough! cash is king.

lastly, Happy New Year to all my beloved friends out there, ppl that i din't sms or u know i din't call or something. May 2007 be a great year for u ppl. may money roll in non stop to your bank accounts! haha for those 21, I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO PROGRESS PACKAGE! :D once again Happy New Year & God Bless.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:37 PM