J e r e m y R y a n

4 days & counting.... Exams are coming.... however I have no feelings.... I should be studying... Then I won't have to be worrying for anything... But, I've been sleeping, smoking, slacking, lastly gunbounding.... Heh... sounds like a fucking poem eh? Whatever la... This week is a total waste of my fucking time. Why isn't there school... Why must it be a study week? I rather go to school at least I think I won't be wasting my fucking life away. Oh well, haven't I been doing it too often already? Fuck it for goodness sake. Exams no exams, life goes on... the saying by my ex-form teacher was... " I judge a person based on his character & not his performances." This saying will always be remembered. It's the last day of October... oh yah... almost forgot. HAPPY HALLOWEEEEEEEEEEENNNNN I always love the stupid Jack-O-Lantern! HAHAHAHA. Most probably I'll be going down to east coast tonight... Dot's got a party down there. Although I know the music is gonna be fucked up, but I hope the drinks are cheap... So can drink until like siao!!! WEEEEEEEEE. From this point... strangers who visit my site can defintely tell what kind of person I am now.... exams are on the 3rd & yet I'm still partying... FUCK CARE K? In life, U MUST BE HAPPY! c'mon, shout out now... "I WANNA BE AS HAPPY AS JEREMY RYAN!!!!" haha. Lame? Quite. But I don't give a fuck. This is how I do it, get it right & u'll never lose it. If U can't take it, then so be it.

Now... for the 'Save the Best for Last' segment. Maybe I'm SO FUCKING BLIND, maybe I'm not. Maybe you're the one, maybe you're not. Who knows who's the blind bat following the blind? I don't know. Maybe this will cause a disaster? U know? I don't know... No one knows. Sensitive.... Hmmm.... I don't know why I'm talking about.... I never drink today... but why does it seems I'm blubbering Rubbish? FUCK OK? I'm SO FUCKING SCREWED.... ARGHHHHH

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:23 AM

Many ppl have been asking why din't I update my blog. The reason is simple, I din't want to. However, now after 12 days... I've got something to say. The thing I realised is I'm the one for her. Maybe it's my own silly thought. But nevertheless I find her so fragile... so delicate, I would never ever break her apart... That only time is gonna be the FIRST & LAST time ever. She's taking a nap now... Sweet dreams is all I can offer. I won't ask to to dream of me. Think of the positive thoughts that made you who you are. Don't make things difficult for you. Always remember, if no one is willing to offer a shoulder, I WILL without a doubt. You make me wanna know you more... if ever I get the chance to explore who truly you are, I wil go all out for it. I know, LIFE IS NEVER FAIR. Take a look at ur hand, are all 5 fingers the same length & size? No, it's not. I'll be there when you are down. When you're happy, I will never demand you to share it with me, it's all up to u. Most importantly, do things that will make you happy. I know you seek a simple life. But it's not easy to find a simple life. Get used to the rough conditions, the shaky paths, bad weather & so on. Life is Never Ever A Bed of Roses. I know you understand this saying. However, from a lousy terrain you get, there's always a way to make it bloom & grow how you want it to be. I always find the pleasure hearing your problems. Yes, I know I'm never the perfect boyfriend or somebody. But I will like to treat you with all the respect other ppl haven't been doing. Take things in your stride. When there's a need to shift up, U have to. Although you may never know what's in front of you. The only way to learn it's to buang. From that, then you will learn your lessons. I may or may not have the chance to say "I Love You." Only heaven knows what will happen in the future. Take my words seriously. You may say you don't wanna hurt me. But the only person at fault, it's Me, Myself & I. I will blame no one else. I chose this route, I'd rather die then give it up.

Lord, I pray so hard that my family can find happiness. My brothers can love their lives. All those REAL ppl that I've known for the past 18 yrs of my life to stay happy. Lastly, I pray for you... yes you! To open up your eyes to find the things that will make you love your life without regrets. I may sound abit mushy & not like the usual me, but oh well, I don't give a fuck. As long you're REALLY happy. I'm satisfied. Don't cling on a sinking boat, it will never come to a good end.

Honestly, I've fallen so deep for you. There's no way out now... I have never regretted anything I've did so far. Cause I know I can get a good soundly sleep at night. Alright... I'll keep myself busy until 2am... don't wanna break my promise.

Chill peeps.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 1:29 AM

I know the story wont turn out so badly,
sooner or later I'll meet someone - her.
she will accompany me in my life,
get settled down & start a family.
she did whatever she though it was right,
the only thing I could do was to wish her that she is right.
can't love the one I truly love,
what else do you want me to do?
my loved one is not my lover.
every inch of her heart is with someone else.
she's so happy however at the same time very fustrated,
this makes me love & hate her so much....
my loved one has already a lover,
from their eyes, it shows that I can't do anything...
everytime I hear what she says about us,
I'm just hearing the word LOVE laughing at me.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 2:13 AM

JUST GOT HOME MAN! I'm so fuckin tired yet... energetic... why ah? today's activites were crazy since the start of my 2 lectures I had... after that was 3++ hrs of solid SPORTS! simply rox cause bball then soccer... & btw, i was given a sratch on my hip by a guy... "accident"? m00! it wasnt. nabei... cannot roll over to the left side when i'm sleeping... anyway... after that was this Huge Event as i percieved.... a Walk around my sch's campus... 2k. but it seemed like so damn long as other classes were like... taking a stroll in da park... knn... i felt sorry for poon who had to run up n down, furthermore he was injured.... but oh well, it was a success to my mentor... i think it was just ok. but i still wanna thank all my mates for helping out... taking attendence, security of the food n stuff, safe guarding during the walk... others... A HUGE THANKS!!!! U PEEPS WERE GREAT! nuff' said ;)

Now... firstly it was The Yard nice place to chill... was with kc, dot, irwin, francis. all very nice ppl... seriously. next met gigi. kewl too. however, they are those SG 20+ ppl... haha, felt young like a kiddo. just kidding ah. Had a great time with that so smooth beer... Engerdier or something... German one, introed by dot. GOOD SHIT! worthwhile sipping it down... we will meet again soon! next was Zouk... fuck man... i hate it just now... simply sucked. argh, fuck, dun wanna talk about it.... but after that, supper at my good old reliable hougang was better... hehe. THANKS TO EUGENE for longpanging me home... if u ain't for u, most probably, i would be on the bus 315 or walking up now... hahaha. had a fantastic time cock talking from like 2+ to 5+... so *beat*! m00.... val, jas, andrew, mei yan... i think we had a gd laugh right? if i'm wrong, tell me ah... cause kinda sleepy now... hope to see u guys soon too!

pH shocked me totally man... dint expect her to watch that show too... *sratches head* & tell me the same thing my mates had been telling me... dunno watado too... hmmm... i guess its too "good" to be true... argh~ i wanna have a unique face mah.... dun wanna be xeroxed. We will meet up one day...

Lastly, wanna thank someone out there for helping me with my e - quiz today... if it wasn't for her, i couldn't party... i felt bad like asking her to do it... but... i also felt happy that she helped me... WHAT THE FUCK AM I TALKING ABOUT?!?!?! I guess only me knows what's truly is that feeling about... :P

K fellas, tried to keep it short n bitter. Time check, 6.30am. so wanna tido if not later mati sia... hopefully i will wake up during evening... SHIOK MAN!!! weather's great! raining chickens & pigs... why cant everyday be like that so I can go to sch "cooly" Get wat i mean? nvm if u dun. Ok, nitey

PS: Francis, the wedding cake u brought was simply irresistable... BAGUS SIA!~

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 6:32 AM

Talking on the phone with someone important feels very much satisfying after so much crap & shit has been done over the past few days... I mean... its so nice to communicate with laughter in it, stories to be told... this & that... Small things like that really will make your day... Dunno why too... At least, for me I could sleep better... hopefully can have a very sweet dream... *hiakz* :P ROFLMAO. I like the Marilyn Manson's version of Sweet Dreams. hehe. To me, it feels damn relaxed. I live for this shit! meaning, I don't mind sacrificing time or u know whatever... cause it's really so happy to be in such a situation. As I said in previous blogs, TIME WILL PROVE EVERYTHING!.

Read my blog, sleep cause its the same old story, i don't give a fuck. :) I just can't believe after that accident, the wall collapsed. So shocking. Cause i tot it cracked deeply... u know like those leaks in walls? I din't know it crumbled, by a black cow speeding at 300km/h? hehe, u know i know. :D But, I won't make it crumble anymore. I wanna draw the layout of the new wall. I wanna re design it. Let me re design it. Surely spray painted nicely. :)

Ok, passed up IT1824's project. Dunno can make it anot sia.. I think if can pass, means cfm George give chance... IT1829 dunno wanna redo anot... I see everyone, the project got like Java here Java there... knn... while my is like hey hey, this is simple codes. Oh well, fuck la, see got time. IT1825 leh... hmmm... gT.... ;) Dao Ka Chiu hor THANKS. EG2119, Heng ah, luckily today did... my brain juice are going DRY!! jia lat... CTs, Exams, round the bend... m000...

Don't talk about work, pisses me off. Anyway, MUST CUT HAIR AH! Kena "nagged" by so many ppl liao... long meh? i still dun get it... can tie is 1 thing... but i inside mostly no hair leh... haha... nvm la... i'll visit Uncle Ali!! So long never go USSC!!! Upper Serangoon Shopping Centre!! Simply the best shit place on the earth! Food's great, Air con's power, No crowds, Cheap comics. BEST! can't wait... hehe...

Time to sleep... Wanna fly to dreamland... hopefully can meet at Blk P 999. :D~~ Go in together... Nitey Nitez Peeps.

Reco Song. Nicholas Tse - Let Me Die

Are we at war tonight,
will there be angels whispering to me good night,
don't wake when the lightning strikes
my heart for you is true,
let no one take that from you
time is running tight,
can't change from wrong to right
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby
It's time to say fare-well,
No need to cry or feeling sorrow
It's alright, all in the book of life
heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
with every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
but I'll rest in peace, my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
only you can stop the rain tonight
only you can change my world
from black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more
Are we at war tonight,
will there be angels whispering to me good night,
don't wake when the lightning strikes
heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
with every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
but I'll rest in peace, my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
only you can stop the rain tonight
only you can give me strength to fight,
till the sky is burning, It's the end of time
look ahead tomorrow, a long and winding road
keep the faith of mine don't let it go
you're the only reason night ain't growing cold
what will I do, without you
I will love you till the end of time
with every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
but I'll rest in peace, my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
only you can stop the rain tonight
only you can make my world so bright,
life, no longer empty,
with you in my heart, In my heart.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 2:19 AM

Last night was fun man... seriously! Although the heat was killing due to walking & lack of air-conditioning... things turned out the way KC's buddy - Dorothy wanted; I guess. ROFLMAO! Mitre Hotel i think. Fucking cool place man... the up slope part especially... hehe... The beer was chilled making it good for consumption. LOL. Before that day, my stomach was really screwed up like a washing machine man... nabei.... my classmates still thought I had some menstral cramps... haha.. quite funny....

Thanks to that CJJ airlines. 12 Yrs come 1 time. WAHAHHAHA Laugh until peng sia!! Hmmm.... no wonder it explains how come she seems happy in class all the time... because gotta wait until 6 more yrs for the NEXT LOAD OF STUFF to COME OUT MAN! :D~~ k k la, if girls read this... I assume they will click the big X on the top right hand side of their window. Oh well, I type & say whatever I want to, take it or leave it. As the saying goes "It's My Way or The High Way"

Anyway, Heineken will make all your troubles seems so far away. too bad no carlsberg special.... oh well, as long as everyone had fun. Dont' ask for much.

the Basic theory was not bad I felt... i mean... hopefully James & I can pass it. Then go find KC & take FTT together!!!
driving more important that Exams, dunno why I find that driving i mean, u pay almost the same amount of dough for classes in poly & to get ur Class 3, but the accomplishment of getting Class 3 feels better though. I mean, I wanna pass this 3 papers I have coming November man... MUST GO YR2!!! fucking hell.... dun go yr 2 damn jia lat man...

dun talk about it anymore...pissing me off. projects also havent gao dim... fuck la....& its the 1st of October already!! In a blink of da eye, OCTO now.... 1 more month to exams... either buck up of fuck up. Thanks Lady in Red for telling me.... Dun eat too much, remember... Dun wanna be like Miss Piggy. ;) K la, wanna go see those pix at Mitre now... later, its time for a GOOD NIGHT'S REST!

Reco Song. Dj X Sonic - Blue Sun

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:26 AM