Sunday, May 21, 2006

hmmm, been not feeling well so cutting down on smokes which is gd i guess. been glued to my new comp over the past 2-3 weeks. currently my dad's outta job. after serving at TYCO for like 1yr + or so he kena retrenched. thinking quite bo yia, but nth's for certain man. i got a job lobang at CCK Lot 1 arcade leh... i dun mind going there to work although its far but at least still got job to help out mah better than staying at home tio bohz. everyday dl movie & watch... quite messed up though i can say.1 thing i still owe my mom alot. not for her i think i might have died on the streets of singapore. dun think i'll be typing anymore so... gonna take pop my pills & rest. cya.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 4:50 PM

Monday, May 08, 2006

i still remember the times when i took bus 53 home... how many yrs have past? 7-8? suddenly outta the blue, the longkang girl msg me on msn... cant believe it... i actually took out those 3 cards to read... quite touching man... it kinda hit me in the heart... pain leh... i still have the green bear soccer ball beanie baby... it was my bday gift i think for my 15, or 16 yrs old one... she lost her wallet yet could get me a gift... dey i wanna drop dead da... knowing i'm a soccer siao back at Lorong Ah Soo & wah lao eh!! KNNNNNNNN no wonder until now she still calls me CHOW NAN REN... i fucking deserve it man... y??? y dint i waited... y must i ask her to find someone better just before going to my long scout camp.. Y? is my fucking heck care impression la... knn ppl see also sian... ai mai ai mai attitude... same as the way i do every other thing la... in front of goal, i can slowly take my sweet time wanna OLE the keeper, ram or placing... by the time i think of something, cb defender take the ball liao... WAH LAO... how i wish i was back in Lorong Ah Soo... my timing really so bad meh? she simply reminds me of someone i know too lor... both the alil spunky attitude persona.. mix english with chinese here n there because i cannot speak chinese... someone fuck me! i'd rather suck myself dry then...

but this is also another fucked up thing... when U wait, doesnt mean u get anything outta it... then u dun wait u 100% screw urself... wtf man... wait or dun wait also die... then do wat? wait for sky to drop down? as i always believed, Valueable things are always hard to come by... so the moment u have it, cherish it coz if u dun, once its gone... u'll never get it back... BUT once again, Y? Y some things is not that valueable afterall even though u have cherished it? then this have nothing to do with keeping it or waiting for it. simply, PPL DO CHANGE. time changes a person 1 way or another the surroundings too...

y do i say this? nb in NYP i dun know htf to converse in chinese... i changed now i speak chinese like water... in thailand, i dint feel like coming back, coz the ppl & the world over there is TOO GD TO BE TRUE... fuck singaporeans coz they got no hospitality at all... another factor.. wherever u go, factors will change u by hook or by crook... hate to accept it, but its a fact... nb la... i really dun understand shit...

i dun wanna cont liao... now is a DECISION MAKING TIME, SCH OR SLEEP. laters.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 5:48 AM