J e r e m y R y a n

i'm a L - O - S - E - R

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 5:18 AM

decided not to continue the previous entry. in sch right now doing my c++ lab. fuck this shit, cause i really do not know a single bit about c++. just 15mins ago, everyone was discussing bout their project group memebers, wat to do & so on. well, when it comes to projects, i never had a say in it. u know why? cause i'm not the ace in class about work. i know my own shit. seriously i dun give a damn about sch work. cause i think it sux so bad. i'm just like a leech, trying to suck on anyone who can just pass any fucking module for me. sounds damn low life right? but who anyone not agree with me? i think everyone is just like that. its just they dun have the balls to admit their shit. whereas i do. when it comes to grades & sch shit, looks like everyone is just simply themselves. the competitive, selfish nature of humans. we all just wanna have the best out of everything possible. hell, am i wearing a mask too? must i always ask ppl to cover my ass in sch work? fuck man. i can do other stuff too, but this programming shit is really not my cup of tea. saw many weird things today in sch. how far will one cover his/her true self?... aiya, fuck it la. anyway i just recovered from my fever. 36hrs w/o a smoke this yr. wat a record. all this flu, fever, body ache shit has hit me down so hard. felt like a weakling, a useless whore who have been fucked all night long. but ya, i'm more or less ok now. just that the throat's flamed up again. not sure is it because of the fever or has it been waiting to explode. yeah man, tmr's a holiday for me. thank god i aint working no more. fuck that shit. i had enough of almost everything. wanna sit back, relax. have a good cuppa & smoke. i just hope to be like the good old days. no stress, nothing. no one's in my mind, nobody in my heart. nothing. just a simple boy out there in his own world, fulfilling his own dreams. should i go to sentosa tmr? or do something alone? fuck, the class is so quiet right now. or is it coz i aint talking? fucking back to c++ right now...

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 7:38 PM

time files. right bros? its been like 4 yrs now ever since Y2k. when u want a taxi, there's none in sight. but when dun need one, so many of them waiting for u to hop on. Hot, Cute, Average. this is just a simple guideline. but no one knows what actually is waiting for us. i still think no one can absolutely tahan us. but the dream will continue. 3 outside 3 inside. haha. where's the mini camera & microphone. we are nothing but a joke. agree? well, 1 more week to term break. ben has finish his tests, fat's this week, mine 3 weeks more i think. i continue later. wanna go eat first.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 8:12 PM

ME
01. first name: Jeremy
02. middle name: Ryan
03. last name: Ng
04. nickname: JR, Tricky, Ah-Beng, T-Rex, JeremEy
05. gender: M
06. birthday: 13/09/85
07. hair color: black
08. eye color: brown
9. race: chinese baba
10. do you wear glasses or contacts: none.
11. where were you born: mount alvernia
12. current location: singapore
13. zodiac sign: virgo
14. how many languages do u know: 5
15. nationality: singaporean
16. bad habits: too many to put
17. piercings you have: 1
18. tattoos you have: 3
19. today's date: 19/8
20. the time: 8.50pm

SCHOOL LIFE
21. are you still in school: duh
22. did you drop out: if i fail my maths again
23. favorite subject: none
24. least favorite subject: maths
25. do you buy lunch or bring it: buy
26. play any sports on the school's team: erm, can't remember... too many.
27. favourite dance: bring it all.
28. favorite memory: 13/9/85
29. least favorite memory: everything?

YOUR FAVOURITES
30. number: 7, 13
31. sport: everything
32. vegetables: baby kai-lan in oyster sauce
33. fruit: everything
34. movie: those i watched before
35. magazine: all also can
36. candy: anything that is menthol, minty.
37. choc bar: white to dark
38. ice cream flavour: i'll eat it as long its cold
40. characters: tofu oyako & many more
41. holidays: every holiday
42. types of music: alternative, tekno, dance, r&b, new age erm whole load of others.
43. things in your room: usual stuff.
44. radio station: 91.3 & 95.0 tv channel: if my eyes can open
45. brand: anything to keep me kewl & comfy.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 8:49 PM

decided to blog while waiting for my food to be ready. my 6610 radio is currently on. as usual, WKRZ 91.3fm. FUCKING funny listening those ppl talk on national radio. i wonder, is this really singaporeans? all of them sound like my polytechnic. haha. fucking funny. but the songs are gd, cause the dj is. what muzik? Euro-Dance aka Tekno. thank you.

yes. its been a week since i last blog. finished the book Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho. so this is what love & sex is all about. heh. past 7 days just normal. what an average person usually does. do refer to my bros & frds blogs for more detailed stuff. usual chilling, relaxing, clubbing, drinking, smoking, sleeping...

what else? oh ya! working. help a ex manager of mine in his new company. giving flyers is kinda irritating man. quoted this from an ASSHOLE. that fucker said this in chinese. "i see u poor thing, so i take ok?" HEY FUCKING BASTARD. U THINK I WANNA DO ONE ISIT? FUCK U MAN. I'M DOING THIS TO KILL TIME, GET EXTRA CASH FOR OTHER STUFF. I CAN TAKE THE FUCKING STACK OF FLYERS & FUCK IT DOWN UR THROAT OR UP OR ASS. ok done. thank god the staff was friendly.

my mind now is in a complete blank. i just know that i have to buy my 3 more tofus to complete the plush series 2 set. buy a few scale 1:55 models & 1 huge 1:12 or isit 1:18 model. quite happy with my 1:24 one right now. erm, is that it? i guess so.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 11:04 PM

yes. i had an enjoyable weekend. its pure excitment, fun & relaxation. we bros namely ALFAT & BJ (duh, i only have 2 bros) had tons of shit to laugh about over this long "holiday". had a spectacular view of the fireworks from NDP at alvin's (bj's cuz) hse. the pool was gd. the fireworks were lagi romantic. 3 big man, enjoying the fine view. haha. damn romantic. if only we could bring some ppl special each to 1 place we 3 know... then the weekend will be sealed. aint i right bros?

had a fun time at zouk, despite a damn long traffic jam. music was initially gd, with standard r&b but somehow towards the end, it turned to house. FUCK. i hate House muzik. so weird. like robots dancing. however before the music was bad, gd ol' uncle dominic made everyone happy with his kind services. roflmao. i bet he's on everyone's blog man. long live uncle dominic from zouk. how i wish my off day on thursday. then wednesday can visit him on MAMBO! later on, i stared blanking while 4 mahjong kakis fought it out with each other. i was either on the couch or learning. serious leh ppl, i really dunno how to dry swim. only wet swim. Jas met another lagger, Hern. haha. Yan looks damn gd at this game man. while Val taught me a little of here & there. thanks... :)

oh yes, blogging while my both fucking ears are having pain. left from mom, right from dad. FUCK man. stop complaining. i have a fucking life, & thats at night. ya, i'm a pua meh guei aka midnight ghost. nowadays i seldom sleep much, cause i think too much. think about wtf i have to do, to make things better for everyone cept myself. the hard hitting finiancial crisis is still here. when will i ever gonna be stable... i wanna settle down. how many fucking times must i tell myself & when will it happen... havent use this for a long time - knnbccb. done.

i'll end at 930 tmr... i think can tahan la, all lab sessions. sibei sian. but better than maths. finally, i can feel the wonton swimming around in my stomach now. thats gd shit. now its time for bed. quote; everyone will encounter the 5 wives 1 husband situation. Why, Who, What, Where, When & How. things happend, 1 of them will be used surely. go figure it out. gd night. it was lovely.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 3:56 AM

everyone wants to be with the perfect one, but can u give up something to be with someone whom really wants to be with u? will anyone change for anyone? is it all about love or material? ain't everybody just crave to have the best things in life? well, i do whatever i can when needed, be there whenever u call, always for u in any possible way. can u too?

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 5:30 AM

was watching The Bachelor - After the Final Rose, it hit me kinda hard, when i pictured myself in it. weird right? u ppl will be laughing ur balls off. cause JR has no looks, no $ nothing. how can he be a Bachelor. Estella (Bob's wife) said, she came on to this show, looking for a possibility. lucky girl, she found it & so did he. was i looking for a possibility too?... now for past 30mins on the way home or so... i swear the pig organ's soup make me rushed to the toilet once i reached home. the pepper pumped tons of gas inside therefore = berak. but nevertheless it tasted not bad thanks to my bro alf's reco. we all know ben enjoyed it, not by seeing his stomach but face. however i still prefer geylang's Ah Shui's pig stuff. but, parking there is like a hassle. u might spend another $50 - $70 bucks more? if u know wat i mean. yes, food & booze made me feel i gotta go back to some sit ups man. getting soft as the days go by. had a nice time eating at newton with my classmates on tuesday night. nothing but chilli. carrot cake black one, hokkien mee, la-la & last but not forgetting, heineken. following day, i found out that after having roti prata, if u drink beer, it makes u feel like dipping prata in piss. the after effects i mean. my stomach's been abit screwed up recently... oh yes, the dreadful weekend is back here again. i'm like so fucking poor to enjoy a night out decently. unlike old times, when i just open my fucking wallet, i at least get to see $10 & knowing my bank has cash in it. but now... my wallet has only receipts & other stuff. what to do? 4-D? toto? heh. this is a point i have to agree with most of my frds blogs. the mood swings, rollercoaster relationships. its like a virus. hitting almost everyone i know, including my own ass. hmmm... i cant really say much though about anything nowadays, cause i cant judge stuff properly, dun wanna give comments that might make ppl misunderstand. if possible, i just wanna take a long drive out alone. enjoying the breeze & music. if anyone wanna accompany me, i'm kinda kewl with it i suppose. no one's online. i'm gonna sleep too. bros, happy working. me? i wish for myself - happy dreaming. nites. the song; Van McCoy - The Hustle is repeating in my head...

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 4:30 AM

yes, the usual 4-5am posts. i mean, what more can i say? i cant sleep like normal ppl do. its a fact. yes, lying on bed thinking, just staring at the walls doesnt help much. it will not bring $ to me, neither other stuff... as wat my bros said, we had a gd time on fri night. just taking a stroll through the busy even lorongs of geylang. why some of them look so pure & demure but have to do this for a living? bros & I simply don't understand... they look like potential gfs or maybe wives to be!? however a plain conversation that goes like this will lead to...;
"how much?"
"$100"
"plus hotel?"
"yes"
"can don't wear condom?"
"of course need."
"hmmm, let me think... cheaper can?"
"c'mon la, very cheap already, u're my first customer..."
"like that ah... ok la, lets go." (in any language u deem fit.)

but clubbing is kinda diff when guys pick up girls... perhaps u gotta have a car, spend tons of cash on drinks, treating everyone the girl knows. next, u gotta suck up to them. intoxicate their mind with alcohol. then start to dance, rub here n there. make her want to suck u bad. tell her u wanna fuck her hard. shit like that. may sound damn crude, but aint clubbing all like that? leave the group there, make out at one corner, later bring her over to some place for a whole night of screw. girls get free drinks/transport/etc... guys get laid cause they itch, or is it both itches? however, conclusion is, Casual Sex. diff from making love, like the Boyz II Men song. this are 2 different things all together. ppl invented toys to make urself happy when u itch. not to disrespect each other. ya, i may sound noble, but that's just me. wtf are ur hands for?

havent been driving for a month, kinda lost my touch? no one to blame cept me. judgement not as gd as before. waiting for the run-in period to be over, then lets see the power of the Mitsubishi Lancer 8 GLX. gd pick up, damn comfy, clear through pipe, locking system make cute sounds (according to alex), very gd sound system (according to everyone) ... anything else? i though by having a car back, it could bridge the gap or something... guess it never even fucking help at all. had places to go tonight. Club III - Alan. Musicunderground - Dawn. Zouk - Val, Jas, Jing Jing. but didnt go a single place cause lack of cash & mood is horrible. in the end, Alex & Sze Hui & I got together for few games of billiard & just another la-kopi session. a cup of my favourite Teh-O at any kopitiam will make me remember someone else's favourite drink. i know what i'm doing, thinking... am i? bro alffy told me lots of stuff on wednesday on bus 14 down to katong... i'm revising wat u asked n told me... its driving my brain nuts, just like that picture on ciggs boxes. blood oozing. sigh, fuck it. it's always gd taking things at ur own pace. but dun leave everything to fate. cause some stuff, are controlled by u. morning.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 4:42 AM