Sunday, August 01, 2004

yes, the usual 4-5am posts. i mean, what more can i say? i cant sleep like normal ppl do. its a fact. yes, lying on bed thinking, just staring at the walls doesnt help much. it will not bring $ to me, neither other stuff... as wat my bros said, we had a gd time on fri night. just taking a stroll through the busy even lorongs of geylang. why some of them look so pure & demure but have to do this for a living? bros & I simply don't understand... they look like potential gfs or maybe wives to be!? however a plain conversation that goes like this will lead to...;
"how much?"
"$100"
"plus hotel?"
"yes"
"can don't wear condom?"
"of course need."
"hmmm, let me think... cheaper can?"
"c'mon la, very cheap already, u're my first customer..."
"like that ah... ok la, lets go." (in any language u deem fit.)

but clubbing is kinda diff when guys pick up girls... perhaps u gotta have a car, spend tons of cash on drinks, treating everyone the girl knows. next, u gotta suck up to them. intoxicate their mind with alcohol. then start to dance, rub here n there. make her want to suck u bad. tell her u wanna fuck her hard. shit like that. may sound damn crude, but aint clubbing all like that? leave the group there, make out at one corner, later bring her over to some place for a whole night of screw. girls get free drinks/transport/etc... guys get laid cause they itch, or is it both itches? however, conclusion is, Casual Sex. diff from making love, like the Boyz II Men song. this are 2 different things all together. ppl invented toys to make urself happy when u itch. not to disrespect each other. ya, i may sound noble, but that's just me. wtf are ur hands for?

havent been driving for a month, kinda lost my touch? no one to blame cept me. judgement not as gd as before. waiting for the run-in period to be over, then lets see the power of the Mitsubishi Lancer 8 GLX. gd pick up, damn comfy, clear through pipe, locking system make cute sounds (according to alex), very gd sound system (according to everyone) ... anything else? i though by having a car back, it could bridge the gap or something... guess it never even fucking help at all. had places to go tonight. Club III - Alan. Musicunderground - Dawn. Zouk - Val, Jas, Jing Jing. but didnt go a single place cause lack of cash & mood is horrible. in the end, Alex & Sze Hui & I got together for few games of billiard & just another la-kopi session. a cup of my favourite Teh-O at any kopitiam will make me remember someone else's favourite drink. i know what i'm doing, thinking... am i? bro alffy told me lots of stuff on wednesday on bus 14 down to katong... i'm revising wat u asked n told me... its driving my brain nuts, just like that picture on ciggs boxes. blood oozing. sigh, fuck it. it's always gd taking things at ur own pace. but dun leave everything to fate. cause some stuff, are controlled by u. morning.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 4:42 AM