Sunday, July 18, 2004

its my 2nd night in a row blogging in the early morning. was talking to my bro a few hours ago. had a gd laugh at many things. lol. its been a long time since we had such long conversations in the morning. but, all was gd. i log on to my friendster account & found 2 testimonials which i approved cause they were true, as usual. read my old testimonials too & realised, quite a number of things are for real. gosh, my friends do really know who i am. luckily i deleted those ppl whom i don't really give a fuck too. cause i'll be expecting some crap from them anyway. however, come to think of it, i missed some of my friends i once knew. read testimonials, added some for them. hmmm, the world is changing. don't everyone know that? but anyway, another frd of mine encountered the "friend" problem in my last posts. the $ problem. ha, fuck it. ppl do tend to think u're rich & take u for granted. thats what i'm feeling & being treated by some ppl too. but i'll just fuck them in their face & say, u can go think whatever u want, assume my parents will feed me forever, be there forever. honestly, why do u want such ppl as friends? worth it? nah. u shower them with care & concern, only thing they will do is to slice a huge portion of ur back (backstabbing la, duh) & continue slicing until ur whole back drops off. will that be the time u will learn? money & time helps, it shows u who ppl really are. but i'm kinda sad at times they way ppl see things, judge things. sigh. everyone has their own point of view. u can't really say much either. conclusion is, humans are stereotyped; all of us. my bro told me this, if u keep wanting something, u'll never get it. ponders, i want her badly, will she be mine? mouth say want doesnt help u know. u gotta put in 101% for everything u want so bad. i did some sums & have a rough idea on how much is best to earn next time in the working world. u ppl better not know the sum. it killed my brain & heart. heh. u know something? a blog will forever be a blog. its purpose is for u to say all u feel & want which u cant do to someone. so pls make full use of it. to fuck someone up, fuck somethings, be sad about stuff, joyful about events or whatever else. i think every blog is diff. there's no such thing as "just another typical blog" sigh. i'm attending the evening mass later about 10hrs time. i want the tofu plush so badly. going to take a look at it... whenever i see the pictures, it makes me shake my head smiling. go figure it out.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 6:37 AM