Thursday, July 08, 2004

yawnz. i just woke up. paid the interest back already. now for the full sum. damn i couldn't believe i just went through class today as norm despite the lack of sleep & food & love, yes, love. it was pretty much horrible as already 2 ppl deem last night. as for me, ya i thought of it as pathetic too. dun talk about the drinks. it was ok for starters. some shots & beer, thanks eugene for those. dint had my flamin' lambo though, turn out i treated val to beer. but last night mood for most of us i guess were flamed anyway. sorry jas, we dint mean that. get wat i mean. i think saying sorry cant really help at this moment. but, if its to blame anyone, blame me. i was a bad boogist last night. wasnt aware of wat was going on the whole time & took for granted others were happy. my fault k? thank god the aftermath was quite ok. chilled at eugene's office. seriously man, his office is kewl. nuff' said. dun kill me yan, but u do need TRAINING badly. now for the funny thing that we 4 talked about at the "Crib". why did she call me when she brought someone else there? i swore to god, it was him. civic p-plate. i dunno whoever it was la, it just haunted me like a fucking ghost. wat more can i say? last night, my spirits were supposed to be HIGH. we were supposed to BOOGIE. but... the truth hurts. seeing it hurts like fuck too. val, i dint fucking do anything to deserve that did i? or was it meant to be? retribution for something else i did? seriously, i dunno wtf is gonna happen la, but ya, this phrase is so damn "SWEET!" guys or girls, do use it.

"i've told u many times before, its just that u are too stubborn to listen. give up on me, i'm not worth it. dun spend all ur time & effort on me. i can't give u back anything in return. i'll be so happy for u once u found ur happiness. don't compare anything with urself to others. the way i treat others is different. cause they know when to be sensitive when not to. dun wait. move on." impressive. i'll be smoking again.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 8:50 PM