Wednesday, July 07, 2004

everyone thinks i made a stupid decision. why give up Simplicity over other things. all the questions that popped to me was this: why wait for nothing? can try build it up y not? how come dun want to give up? why still persist so hard like a fool? WHY THIS WHY THAT!?!?!?!??!?! all the pain & shame & suffering is what i deserve all my life. i've changed. cant she just see that i'm giving up everything. i cannot forget, i can't let go. the feeling i get for the past 3months + or so is something i never felt before for 19yrs? they say nothing last forever, sweet stuff is for a while. fuck those logics la. i sat down last night & thought of so much things. family problems that will never be solved unless dad, mom & me strike 4-d, toto. alfy has this huge back problem which no one knows wtf actually will happen or caused it. but bro, u better fucking read this: no matter u gonna be WCB or watever fuck la, ben & i will always be ur bros. we will eat our Chai Chee Bak Chor Mee anytime man! brothers is forever. sch started, 3 Yr1 modules. i must pass IT 1828 if not i'm screwed. but if i fail, i wont die anyway. lastly, i just have to land myself in a huge slumber. i dun wanna add anything else anymore. i just wanna say lastly. u dunno how i feel right now. u simply just dun understand all the sacrifices & stuff that i did & went through.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 3:12 PM