Friday, July 16, 2004

blogging on a fri night would be something i hardly do. but yes. i'm doing it right now.  i'm deciding whether should i get a new layout. i guess i'm always the stale one who doesnt change the layout as often as others. but i have engaged the services of Val to help me with it. she's really gd at doing this kinda shit. although she hasnt found any inspiration, its ok. cause most prolly i'll be sticking to my layout that i've been using for 2 yrs or so now? who cares anyway. i realised something, that is my current finanical problems would last for as long as i'm alive. that's unless i strike TOTO or 4D which is the so called fastest way to be rich. was talking to my DAD couple of nights ago. those father-son conversations which will never run out of topics. funny how both of us accepted the fact that we are kinda poor now. just moving along as each day goes. yes. we have our goals in life. i know he's is to give my MOM, SIS & ME a good life, including himself. i often think back of the things he taught me, we did together. it was very meaningful & kinda always changed me in a way or another. very grateful for his teachings in life. the Best Teacher. but, he's out for a meeting now. so yeah, mom's waiting for u. my goal in life is also quite the same as him. just to return wat my parents gave me. at least they can be proud of me. after thinking, i cant remember of things that i did which made them proud. perhaps nothing. anyway, i just have to say, Dad, Mom ur son here knows wat u mean. i have a rough idea wtf to do. so pls, dun worry about me. i'm trying my utmost best to save up for the family too. i always will remember wat both of u told me. "When you are rich, everyone will come flocking to u. When you are POOR, the people you call friends will show you the true meaning of friends" very strong tone here. but its true. everyone reading this, knows it deep down too. as for me, i actually don't really care if they call me friends, call me out just because they knew i have a car. my phone has been quiet recently perhaps for 3weeks or so now? cause i'm car-less? lol. i hardly give a damn to those ppl. maybe... 5 yrs down the road, i'll be in my EVOLUTION & u will be in some kinda transport from SBS? who knows? a friend told me this during dinner just now. we actually don't belong in this planet, we are just using the stuff here. once our time is up, we have to go back either up there or down below. make sense? u tell me. i do look back at the times i was when i had dough. i still remember the times 3 of us bros went out, felt like a king. but now, all this gd moments last for a while. the truth hurts, doesnt it? heh. lastly, i'm all out of love i guess. nothing more to say, nothing more to add, nothing more to feel. did wat i felt, did wat i thought right, did watever to make things gd. Bro, i ain't having no BGR problem. i'm growing as the days goes by. i'm being realistic. i'm carrying life on. remember wat i told u? being realistic means, U HAVE THE $, U TALK THE LOUDEST. i dont talk loud, cause i cant & also its not me. i talk loud when i have to. not everytime. btw, KC, this bitch passed this CLASS 2B. remember man, u're still young. u gotta fucking play when u can. try watever possible. if its meant to be, it will. no such thing as avoid accident. fuck u. hear me? FUCK U HARD. once u get ur license, ur head & balls gotta grow. like mine. conclusion: Push yourself to the extreme in whatever you do. Yes, we are all human, we made mistakes. But, there's NEVER EVER no wrong in trying things everyone hates U to.


posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 11:10 PM