Tuesday, August 24, 2004

decided not to continue the previous entry. in sch right now doing my c++ lab. fuck this shit, cause i really do not know a single bit about c++. just 15mins ago, everyone was discussing bout their project group memebers, wat to do & so on. well, when it comes to projects, i never had a say in it. u know why? cause i'm not the ace in class about work. i know my own shit. seriously i dun give a damn about sch work. cause i think it sux so bad. i'm just like a leech, trying to suck on anyone who can just pass any fucking module for me. sounds damn low life right? but who anyone not agree with me? i think everyone is just like that. its just they dun have the balls to admit their shit. whereas i do. when it comes to grades & sch shit, looks like everyone is just simply themselves. the competitive, selfish nature of humans. we all just wanna have the best out of everything possible. hell, am i wearing a mask too? must i always ask ppl to cover my ass in sch work? fuck man. i can do other stuff too, but this programming shit is really not my cup of tea. saw many weird things today in sch. how far will one cover his/her true self?... aiya, fuck it la. anyway i just recovered from my fever. 36hrs w/o a smoke this yr. wat a record. all this flu, fever, body ache shit has hit me down so hard. felt like a weakling, a useless whore who have been fucked all night long. but ya, i'm more or less ok now. just that the throat's flamed up again. not sure is it because of the fever or has it been waiting to explode. yeah man, tmr's a holiday for me. thank god i aint working no more. fuck that shit. i had enough of almost everything. wanna sit back, relax. have a good cuppa & smoke. i just hope to be like the good old days. no stress, nothing. no one's in my mind, nobody in my heart. nothing. just a simple boy out there in his own world, fulfilling his own dreams. should i go to sentosa tmr? or do something alone? fuck, the class is so quiet right now. or is it coz i aint talking? fucking back to c++ right now...

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 7:38 PM