J e r e m y R y a n

the things that are bugging me are, PROJECTS, YR 2. Other than this 2, i dun really give a shit to anything else.....except for... later i'll talk about that. Wat projects i gotta hand up ah? hmm... the fucking C programme one... then 2 websites... & lastly a lame EG2119 module... ARGH!!! "baby it's gonna drive me crazy!!" ROFLMAO.
I think i have to agree with gT that some points he made were true.... Oh well, its a dog eat dog world out there so u know wat i mean. Hate to play a scumbag role, but if I forced to, i will do my best in it. :) So far so gd in the house... air-con's keeping me chilled man... lacking a tv, ps2, new comp, a bicycle... then all is settled... at the mean time, buy some 4 digits. HAHA. although i really dun think 4D can make u rich like fuck, its fun to try ur luck always. ROFLMAO. quite shiok one leh... when u strike or the number jump... ur heart will jump too! ;)

anyway... i saw a away msg from my frd on net... it read...
****(his nick, anyway, i was spying on u) is away: Dun waste your time on a women who isn't willing to waste her time on you. wat he says actually made tons of sense sia... when i think about it... *sigh* i feel happy to see her happy & yet sad at times when i think back... but i wanna shift to gear 2 liao... cannot always gear 1... but my gear box cock up liao... :P watever happens in the future, no one knows... destined to be isolated...

ok, wanna light my salem... & sleep... lazy to study n do project la...weather so shiok~

Reco Song. Marc Anthony - I Need To Know

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 5:09 PM

Ok. I've agar agar settled down in my new house. everything's almost ready to party... just lack of a new comp, ps2, tv. then, i will declare myself as a couch potato. :) but first things first. got back my 2 common tests & i failed it. fuck man. i din't study so i deserved to fail. well... at least i knew i dint put any effort into it. ah fuck it la. fail already wats the point in fusing over it? now i have to STUDY N GO YR2 !! i can't fucking repeat for goodness sake. bth liao.... Somebody SAVEEEEEEEE MEEEEEEEEEE..... but only i can save myself... :( ok. lets get things started. Since i have my own room, its time to tune myself in a studious mod... haha say easy do hard... :P fucker ah? ROFLMAO. 4 projects... semester exam coming up in a couple of weeks... what more can i say? but just to mug. but i dun do the normanl mugging. ask me go mugging as in drinking, no prob man... ;) aiya... take this common tests as a lesson to be learnt. gone for now... be back later yeah?

Reco Song. Hong Rong Hong - Yi Zhi Xiao Yu San

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 6:56 PM

hey peeps. i think my blog is down, but dunno y still can update... anyway, just wanna let u guys know tonight will be my last night here in Hougang Ave 1 Blk 126. :( i've been here since pri5 man... played at voidecks... blk catching... at superbowl... most of my childhoon n teen life have been spent here. the memories will surely linger on... those days man... machiam some kampung days rofl. actually this place is very nice... cause the bus stop is like just below & there's a mini mart also where i get those stuff of mine... then met a great person opposite a long kang. hehe, u know who. however its the old frds n ex classmates that stayed near the vicinity..... the quotes would be like "lets meet at the bball court or the field at 5.30pm" or "s-11 9pm" or "same voideck, bring drinks" haha. really loved those days... everything was like walking distance... yeah! finally get my own room!!... but going to sch n going out of the house to bus stops are gonna be a hassle man... grrr... especially singapore weather... fucked up~ :D its just my honest opinions, u understand right? oh well... tmr's lesson is at 9... gotta sleep already... see u guys at Serangoon North Ave 1 Blk 118!

Glory Glory Manchester United!!! Sure win! :D~

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 1:25 AM

I'm 18 already! a huge thanks to my bros for celebrating this day with me at K-ster KTV! had a jolly good time with them man. sat downstairs all of us had a good talk, made wishes. Hope all the wishes will come true! My birthday wish is very simple... yet complicating... however they know wat i mean... :) kudoz to those ppl who wished me, especially vivian jie jie... on the dot sia... touched. catch up with u asap.

oright, gotta bath... getting sticky sia... m00~

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 3:36 AM

all my common tests are over... 2 papers... wat are the chances of me passing both? i dun think its damn high... oh well... today luckily farhan helped me man... if not the paper could be given to someone else to do.... haiz...time flies... 3 more days & i'll be 18... but actually i dun feel a thing... cause wat an 18 yr old ccan do, i've done it already.... however this yr's bday wish is gonna be so much more than the other years... i prayed so hard that it can come true... finally 1 wish in 18 times can turn out the way i want it to be.... *prays* life is like that. it cheats on u, play pranks on u... make u feel like a total loser sometimes... yet u surely somehow will get back on ur feet & stand up... although i can get up now... i must still try to get back my composure... i dunno how long will it takes... this thing has been drilling deeper into my heart/mind... i hate to like pour my grief out in my blog... but its like... this is the only thing that i can write watever i'm feeling... & its total neutral... meaning, no positive/negative comments.... but u know... cant get everything u want... hopefully i can pass my CTs... it would be more than enough... i know how much effort i put in anyway. so it would be slightly hard to get a b or c. well i guess, just base on fate. if fated to do well, its done. all the best in ur life. gd to hear that u're back with who u started with... since u're back with someone else... there's nothing more i can do. once broken... always broken.

Reco Song. Savage Garden - I Knew I Loved You

Maybe it's intuition
but some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes, I see my future in an instant
And there it goes,
I think I found my best friend
I know that it might sound
more than a little crazy
but I believe...

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
Only the sense of completion
And in your eyes, I see
the missing pieces I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home
I know that it might sound
more than a little crazy
but I believe...

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 6:32 PM

Saturday 6 of September 12.54:45pm to 12.58:52pm was the worst conversation I had for 18yrs of my life... it was simply horrible. i guess both of us will never talk, never laugh, never share ice cream, never disturb each other, never make stupid faces.... never do anything together.... for a very long time to come... she is just so fragile to me to hurt... but i dream also never dreamnt of just now... when the worst thing happened.... i never disrespected her in anything i've did... i never wanted to her cry or shout... i dunno la... dun tell me she cant feel anything? am i not fated to be with her? i TRIED HARD OK. i really tried.... i just duno why she treated me so cold from wednesday night until now.... wtf is wrong.... & y must she always talk about her ex? i admit... it was long. if it was me, i also cant forget it st away. but... aiya... fuck la.... i dunno la... she can tell me so much things i never expect to hear... sorry girl... if i did anything wrong.... i'm so sorry.... pls forgive me....i never thought year 2000 jeremy is back here.... i dun want it to come back.... it will be my downfall in poly.... if its fated i'll never be ur man.... i have no one to blame but myself for falling in love with you... sorry

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 1:59 PM

Shout out to my e-S mei. Had a good talk with her. I felt much better after listening to what she said. A Big Thank You!

Reco Song. Air Supply - All Out Of Love

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

(Chorus)
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?

And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

(Chorus)
Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
(Repeat Chorus)

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:45 AM

I went there as a man full of hopes & happiness, but came back a lost & dejected soul.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 3:13 PM

This week is the term break man... CTs are around the corner... Must study hard for this week... I cannot fail my C programma & Discrete maths CT... fuck man... if anything screws up... i have no one to blame but me... Btw, This whole month of September is MY MONTH! hahaha. I always loved this time of the year... firstly because 12 more days, 17 yrs ago, a baby named jr was borned! ROFLMAO. tmr, will be the class chalet. i hope everything will go well during the whole 3 days... i ain't letting anything or anyone spoil the stuff she organise... i will make it a memoriable one for her... as wat my bro alffy said. :) btw, heard my bro ben is gonna salvage the relationship between him n rita? ALL THE WAY MAN! dun delay... somethings in life u only got 1 shot, do not miss ur chance to blow it!!! bro alffy... BARCUBE eh? I can't wait also... man... when 3 of us can go happy! but i wont go those "Ai yo mai yo" places.... grow up liao... LOL! bros, take care man.. u know wat i mean... :) ok... wanna go wash up, just woke up...

laters,

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:28 PM