J e r e m y R y a n

my sista is finally back from downunder! guess what? this is the first time she actually bought something for me. kinda touched sia. hoho. however there's something i must stress. personally i hate guys wearing pink. but this time, i have make an exception. cause my sis got me a pink colour board shorts. muahaha!! sibei act leh!! guys in pink. i see the shorts, i ji tao peng. so this time, cause its the thoughts that counts. therefore, i decided to wear it! my pink xklusiv boardshorts from aussie. something that SG will never have. cause the brand aint here. the tee was nice too. something new for a change. i certainly look funny sia when i put on both of them. pink leh... knn sibei gay, sibei act. ROAR! but its really sweet of her to get me stuff. thanks sis! 17yrs passed since i last recieve something from u... :D

hey kak kak! i believe ur IAT @ M1 is doing great too. of course we still keep in contact. 1 & only kak kak sia. work hard & smart. can eat snake, eat more. IAT very easy to get over one. i cant wait for mine too. guess my route now is, study, fyp then iat. since NYP so fucked up dun wanna tell me wtf will i be doing first. bo bian, although hope to graduate as class MI0311 with u, but i guess not. for those homies of mine who are doing their fyp & iat, i seriously hope u guys are doing fine. IAT is a phase when u will meet more faces, older ppl & have a jolly good time yeah.

hmmm, time is running out. i'm dead tired. oh btw, this is to someone close to me, just a piece of advice: since u already decided to be in it, the only 2 choices are obvious. u either leave it or continue learning from it. but u know la, always u kena this shit, u ask me i will tell u fuck the relationship. cause u dun deserve such crap & of course u need someone better, worthwhile to be with. but anyway, u should know my judgement is never wrong... hehe :) if that sorry S.O.B. continues being a prick, tell him ki hong kan k?

time to tuck myself in & go into a fantasy once more... i hope my bros & i can complete the up & coming Koh Samui trip. its gonna be once in a lifetime experience. LIVE IT!! why bother about the fuckers in SG when u can be a KING in thailand!! muahahahah foooooodddd, smokeeeee, drinkssss... everything is BAHT cheap man! nites.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 3:59 AM

nb la. today, some classmates will start their attachment, some of them going back sch for their briefing of the FYP. ok. here's the problem. yeah i know i'm a online student due to my modules that i repeat. but so wtf man? fucking NYP dun tell us (online students) where the fuck & what the fuck we will be doing. i dun see my name on the list for FYP or IAT. prolly the only fucking thing NYP knows is to make $, fuck care online students. basically, the new timetable module fixing lecturer is a bloody PCB chinese speaking motherfucker who has absolutely NO interest in students unlike Mr Loo. so going to him, is like fucking a brick. pointless. WAH. fucking pek chek leh. wanna go find work, but if later sch shit start how? knn, cannot do half way suah mah... pcb NYP. how how how? main point is still, NYP is a FUCKED UP poly. nb.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 3:10 AM

there's still few mins left so i shall say HAPPY 48th BIRTHDAY DAD!!! u still look young n steady, no wonder mom still love u as usual. hope u enjoyed the dinner. super full right? 6 dishes with only 3 of us eating. sis is enjoying her aussie trip i guess. when she comes back, her turn to give us another treat. we both know u love ice-cream, so dad, pls prepare to get fat.... :)

there's stil few mins left for me to have my perfect 24points. BYE BYE P PLATE. i do not need u anymore. or actually all the while i do not need u from the start... ;) talking about P Plates, just a couple of days ago i saw a fucked up P Plater at my carpark. the usual, lighting up my mah-bao-lu menthol, saw this SFS P Plate VIOS coming into the carpark. time was ard 5.20 or so in the evening, meaning carpark space was plentiful. I HONESTLY WONDER HOW THE GOD DAMN FUCKING TESTER PASS HER. firstly, her judgement, eye point, steering, sense of direction and everything else went FUCKED. after all the turning n fucking ard, this poor SFP Weekend VIOS got WACKED by SFS's rear mirror. SFP was parked swee swee liao, relak there. but this fucking SFS came n hit it. motherfucker, she still got the cheek to adjust her own mirror only. After a whole 30mins, parked her car & went away. NABEI CB. wat a typical FUCKED UP S I N G A P O R E A N. she dint even see the SFP lor. wah knn. if i really see her on the road, i'll give her my in-out lane special. make sure she hit my fucking ass & i get a FREEEE NEW BUMPERRRR & BRAKES & SERVICING!! MUAHAHAHAHHA!!!

shall edit when i'm free again. meantime, for those P Platers, actually put P Plate better, more song. ppl "MIGHT" give way to u la. might only. but for me, FUCK THE P PLATE!! I'M OFF IT!! MUAHAHAHAHAH :D P E R F E C T 24 P O I N T S

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 11:48 PM

u know, sometimes we should read between the lines. this refers to me as well. not everything is just based on the surface facts. argh, i dun wanna spoil my sleep for later. anyway, thinking of the smug on ppl faces makes me simply sick. oh, dap yeah i read ur msg, i know wat u mean. it doesnt really surprises me y u will leave me that msg. i seriously think this is a whole joke from day 1 to be exact. when actors try to be nice, they are loved for by doing it. when real ppl try to be nice, they often get taken for granted. yeah this is life i know this shit, how it goes. when ppl are blinded, they see nothing else. or actually everything. LMAO. wat a contridiction. this enty is very heated. i dunno how to curb it. although i'm trying my fucking best.... i think i'll better end it right here, before i start blogging about some fucked up shit. bye bye. good night. sweet dreams.

ps: for those who has been asking me how my shit is going about, i've gotta tell u peeps this. No More exams for me. hooray. hope i dun kena any sub papers. I really appreciate ur care n concern from the bottem of my heart. h o n e s t.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 1:50 AM

tmr's my last paper. finally. just got back frm sch no long. thanks to uncle dan for teaching me java. he's been a great giver to the class i feel. besides being the oldest, 25. he still look like any of us though. haha forever young uncle. today's weather was quite fucked. to be honest. rain, shine, no diff. humid like fuck. cant really concentrate.

class gonna have a ktv session on the 20th this month. 1 day before my P PLATE RUNS OUT. fwahahah 24 points. perfect driver w/o a doubt... ;) back to the ktv, kinda L A S T outing liao. some go IAT, some go FYP, some study like me. yeah, its the last outing yet still some ppl behave really weird. i dunno y. whats with all the FUCKING ANIMOSITY. we've been through 2 fucking years already, wtf is wrong man. sometimes when i take a look at my broll's class at NP, i kinda envy them man. or my the other E-4 class that taught me my 2827 comp maths. ya correct, there is JIAO LANGS in every class, but y is it that other JIAO LANGS are affecting us instead of our own JIAO LANG. hai, sibei act leh in own class. bth. monkey see monkey do. influence of each individual is so strong. sometimes, no brainer things machiam damn hard to do or say one. knn. no one wanna plan, ok. i'll plan the ktv. but so many restrictions. this la, that la. sibei wu eh bo eh la. i'll plan it, ok? everyone hates to plan things. i'll shall do the SAI KANG y? perhaps i'm born n made to do sai kang. however, if i plan swee swee liao & yet ppl still give me shit, those outta shoot themselves. nuff'

time to relak awhile first, later read some lj java.... MAN, I NEED LIQOUR!!!!

"birds of the same feathers flock together, fuckers fuck each other."

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 7:00 PM

"Omnipotent and benevolent"

Although someone might have the power to interfere & prevent any pain & suffering. Would you choose to show your love & concern by letting the person learn through their lessons?

Of course, pain is part of growing up. It's how we learn.

There were times i would rather be the jiao lang & do something good for once however i step back & act as if as nothing happen or rather, i have no feelings about it. I choose to live in the shadows when i know ppl whom are like fuck are gonna harm u. Why don't i do anything? Why should i? Upon doing it, honestly i do not gain anything from it which i dun wish to also. As i see & hear as time ticks by, i understand that we are just living in a lie. Nobody knows it but me. I have to agree with ppl that, things happen very fast, u might be living in the moment & disappearing next. Why are they just so fake yet no one wanna expose it or talk about it? Is going through such moments enjoyable? When it's never true, just a fucking show staged for some purpose or motive.

Here's a little story about 3 little stooges. Z, V, A. My frd was Z's ex girl. There were many happenings about them. As we 2 were gd frds, she told me most about Z. Once I heard Z cry over the phone. I admit, i wasn't impressed by his charactor at first. However as time goes by, Z seem to be the best of the 3. But to me, he's still 1 kind la. Now for V & A. This 2 motherfuckers ought to be fucked hard by some gay - REAR. 1 has a girl whom i believe he doesnt give a fuck & another is trying to be Da Playa of Da Century~ he outta wear a XXXL jersey with the name PLAYA number 69... ya know wat i'm sayin'? fucking dick. Why in the world do such MOTHERFUCKERS exists? They wreck the balance. Simply abuse it. Are ppl just plainly fuck blind or what? Sad to say, many of such low life fuckers are lurking around the city streets, so ppl. B E W A R E. I mean, if u realise of such & are in contact with them, I strongly advise you to take a step back & see it with ur semi-opened eyes. Oh.. forgot to add my disclaimer...

Disclaimer - If you are reading this & think I'm crazy, nuts or bonkers. Why not just sit down & think about what I said & don't start giving me that "Jr, u are this, u are that" fuck. If anyone who happens to know the 3 stooges & wanna have a go at me. COME BABY. I warmly welcome ANY & i mean A N Y one. Give me your best shot, cause if I don't drop, I swear U will. Or if you think U got something to say, drop ur name & comments. Your name as in my name Jeremy Ryan Ng. Not some Climmie Fisher or Timmy Thomas. Thank You.

To end this, yeah i'll be having a paper in 10hours time. Super pumped up Active Server Page paper man. The studying ain't 7788 however i'll seat it just like any other paper. Going in with 1 of God's greatest gifts to man. EYES. Ok then, time to light a Marlboro & tido... :)

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:59 AM

common tests are finally over. not a time to say hooray. wats coming next is 3 huge papers for me. Java, Asp & Maths. absolutely no confidence in those 3 i can say. just wanna pass those 3 & continue studying. next couple of days is just like a short break to me. after tmr, its back to studying again. god, give me strength to study & to pass my 3 papers pls.

honestly my mind's blank now. i dunno what shall i type here. there are many things that ppl assume i do not know or have no clue about. lies have been told, either black or white. the question is, why must it happen? every single thing exposed totally blew me away. very disappointed with myself regarding judgment, vision & actions. dun wish to elaborate anything else.

the skies have been so black the whole day, another reflection of my mind & soul.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 7:03 PM