J e r e m y R y a n

just got back home from Hougang S11... oh man... saw my results already.... horrible i think... i gotta repeat the fucking MATHS MODULE! WTF... i thought maybe can hiong a D... in the end... knn la... MATHS SUX. always will... it all started from me... chose the wrong course... under IT, but actually ENG.... fucking maths.. gonna kill me in NYP... haiz... what to do? fuck it la ok...

tonight's my MEI - ES BDAY cum O LEVELS celebration BBQ at ECP!!! so time to meet up with her! yeah! :) tmr is my BRO ALFFY'S 19th BIRTHDAY!!! fun right!!! so many happening stuff.... outta feel happy! but.... fuck ok?

meet up with QX & Darryl... both still look the same as ever... only person that changed is PH! i met her at my old rendevous with her last time...hehe... she looked mostly the same... just the hair thingy... still as hot as ever la. ;) since ur A's over, time to PARTY!!!

as for me? I shall wait for my hair to dry... sleep.... then cut hair.... i dunno wat else... what a boring life....

PS: hey girl, i hope u get Band 1 or 2 or pass every single module u took... from the start i knew u could do it... GOOD MORNING!

Reco Song. Atomic Kitten - Cradle

"Nites ppl!"

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 7:11 AM

hey blog... i wont bug u with anymore stupid things... this is my last sad blog entry. always give u those fucked up sad shit.... i think i'll go back to my old ways... flood u with nothing but happy stuff.... why am i saying this? i dunno too.... i just know, sometimes u can put in 101% effort & yet get 0% back. so what its not fair? well, if its planned like that.... i just have to take it & move on....

what's holding u back? how the hell i know? i told myself many times to give up & let u go.... just wanna go back to the orientation day... when u starting looking & felt funnny if i looked back... all those cute little stuff.... but i guess it never seems to happen anymore... no more phone calls or smses.... WHY? there are times when all comes in 1 shot & times when there's nothing at all.... i hate to ask questions.... neither do i like to answer any.... Yes. I don't understand u... i never will...

a fantasy ends in a cloud of smoke

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 11:06 PM

sigh.... i think i'm the cause of the everything... the stupid jinx.... happy or sad also my fault... i'll take the blame for whatever i did. tell me 1 thing or the other, i'll do whatever u say.... ask me to wait, i will. ask me to forget, i will never. my character makes me who i am... u know what i'm llike. but, since u wanna move away... i cant force u to stay.... sorry.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 7:28 PM

why? why that sudden change in attitude? is it something i've done? i dunno, can somone tell me? i'm willing to do anything just to make it up... cant u be like past few weeks... the gal that i loved talking to... but why? FUCK MAN! WHY!?!?!? WHY AM I SO DAMN FUCKING UNLUCKY!! Cant someone just bang me down & let me forget everything i know? I dont mind taking all these shit... everything's is worth doing for being with u... although it hurts me like fuck to get this shit from u, i dun mind. i promise u that i'll wait for u... i'll do it.... without a doubt. Is it really due to my ill fated life that i've to go through? u wanted time... i never pressured u at all.... until now... cant u at least tell i've never given up.... i'm still holding on... CHANCE is a word that in this world, its gotta be so damn bloody hard to get.... u kknow i dun mind not having the status of us being in a BGR... just that talking at night or msging here & there makes me equally happy... cause i know u're happy too.... if its really not meant to be... i dunno wat else do i have to go through... i wish i was dead & not have to be in this world.... i'll never stop until u're mine.. sounds weird but i guess that's how i put it in my way....u are somone i definetly WILL NEVER EVER FORGET in my life. u made me happy & sad; vice versa. i just wanna be with u... is that really so much to ask? sigh... i dunno.... i guess persistance will never pay off....

signing off, a lost, rejected soul by the name of Jeremy Ryan Ng.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 1:04 AM

Phew... Past 4 days were so crazy... damn tired man... I can't feel my legs. ROFLMAO. Confirm needa go some Health Spa & Fitness Centre !! hahahaha. Geylang? Hmm... where else.... Full Body Massage baby! Fuck man... the fucking polo tee is like so damn thick, unlike last time... cooling & seasoned. Oh well, although I'm damn shagged but, a phone call made my day ease at peace to know U're having fun & at the same time feeling better... The road's long, there are paths to take... choose a path that will make u have time to rest & relax. I'll never forget what Mingwei & Junming told me previous night... I die also wont' forget u guys. Also, thanks to my bro alffy da panda for sticking together with me all these time... bj, make use of ur time... don't slack k?

Reco Song. Monkey God to Zi Lan... or is it Zi Wei Fairy? Hmmm... - Liang Nu

Liang Nu Liang Nu Wo Ai Ni Eh.... Eh Eh Eh Eh....
Liang Nu Liang Nu Wo Ai Ni Eh.... Eh Eh Eh Eh....
Liang Nu Wo Ai Ni, Ai Ni Ai Ni Ai Ni...
Yong Yuan Ai Ni.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:42 AM

5 days had past... During these 5 days, lots of stuff have happened.... What more can I say? Ok, let's be honest here. I'm KINDA WORRIED I can't past semester 1. I don't wanna take those fucking SUB-PAPERS. I shall end here about my poly shit. Not worth. :) Missing for the past 48hrs in my parents eyes were funny actually. Because they din't see me since Friday Morning to Saturday Night. ROFLMAO. Been Battlefielding 1942 for hellava long... leading to no $... another thing, Salem no more small pack! Oh fuck this shit! Simply sux. So had to buy hard pack & the WORST FUCKING THING EVER TO BE SMOKED BY ME AGAIN... - Menthol Light. I can't believe I'm like those fucking small bengs & lians with a stupid menthol light in ma mouth. FUCK MAN! I'll find an alternative anyway, nuff' said. Tmr, I'll be starting to work again... there's a slight difference in pay now... actually not slight... o_O I also not sure... nvm... I'm like fucking squeezing lots of shit in here. However, the main point of updating shall start right NOW!

1 & a Half more months is all the time that will decide most of the things. Somehow or rather, I feel happy.... It's like that long feeling came back outta no where.... But for now, I'll do the sweet dreaming. :P Hey girl, somethings are not worth anything, somethings are worth everything. Be happy. Forget all those FUCKED UP NONSENSE SHIT. Remember, don't look things on the surface.... Typical hokkien saying like, 'Ho Kua (nice to see), Bo Ho Jiak (taste like shit at all)' Stay strong & cheerful girl....U'll never gonna get those fucked up crap from anyone else anymore. Sweet dreams. :)

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 3:09 AM

I AM: someone whom u must know very long to tahan or understand me... :)

I WANT: a big dick! WAHAHAHAH no la, a SIMPLE LIFE.

I HAVE: a wonderful family & frds.

I WISH: I was not a Singaporean

I HATE: Singapore's FUCKING WEATHER

I MISS: those ppl who missed me too, that's if there's anyone who missed me. LMAO

I FEAR: not getting through my course in NYP

I HEAR: the fan blowing in my face.

I SEARCH: for more ways to make my life relaxed

I WONDER: why MAN are so selfish, self-scented assholes

I REGRET: not doing things I wanted to.

I LOVE: my bed... :P someone who may not return the love.

I ACHE: in the stomach. fucking hell,

I ALWAYS: complain of the heat. nuff' said.

I AM NOT: a rich man or a nice guy that most MOTHER FUCKERS wanna be.

I DANCE: to only EURODANCE.

I SING: anytime, as long as I like that song

I CRY: if I'm dead. I never cry.

I AM NOT ALWAYS: stressed.

I WRITE: when I feel like it.

I WIN: almost at anything I play. Cai Quan, Arcade, what else?

I LOSE: badly in Love..... :~

I CONFUSE: nothing...

I NEED: a Tv, a Ps2, a New comp, a bicycle.

I SHOULD'VE: fucked some ppl up that I din't...

Yes Or No...

x. You keep a diary: forgot....

x. You like to cook: alright la

x. You have a secret you have not shared with
anyone: nah.

x. You believe in love: see who's involved.

The weirdest person you know: my frd's ex-girlfriend

the Loudest Person you Know: Myself

The Sexiest Person you Know: My bro ALFFY!

Your closest friend(s): my bros, pal, ppl who treat me as frds...

The People that Knows the Most about you: My family, bros, pal.

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Do You...?

Have a(any) crush(es): it's not a fucking crush. it's.....

Want to get married: See fate.

Get motion Sickness: Nah, that's PATHETIC

Think you're a health freak: forced to be by my mom...

Get along with your parents: of course.

Like thunderstorms: anytime. :D

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(FAVORITES )

NUMBER: 13

COLOR: White

SONG: Savage Garden - Universe

SEASON: WINTER!!! I LIKE IT WET!

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( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )

CRIED? NO.

HELPED SOMEONE? yeap

BOUGHT SOMETHING? Cigrettes la

GOTTEN SICK? fucking stomach...

GONE TO THE MOVIES? nah, I prefer it at home

GONE OUT FOR DINNER? always.

WRITTEN A LETTER? NO. I hate doing such lame shit

TALKED TO AN EX? Never.

MISSED AN EX? Never.

WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? Blog counted?

HAD A SERIOUS TALK? Not really....

MISSED SOMEONE? of course, but I saw that someone today already. :D

HUGGED SOMEONE? fat chance for me. lol

FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? SOON, HAHAHA I feel it coming...

FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no.

PLAYED ANY GAMES ONLINE? GUNBOUND

DO YOU FEEL LONELY? Perhaps I guess... I can't really say no...

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:58 PM

1. What is your middle name?
Ryan

2. What kind of pants are you wearing?
Monotone Boxers

3. What are you listening to right now?
DJ Sakin & Friends

4. What are the last 4 digits of your phone
number?
6733

5. What was the last thing you ate?
Chicken Rice from Food Junction

6. If you were a crayon, what colour would you
be?
Orange or Black

7. How is the weather right now?
FUCKING HOT

8. Last person you talked to on the phone?
She.

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite
sex?
Hair? Butt? hahaha I don't know...

10. Do you like the person who sent you this?
An ah lian called MEI YAN aka FROST

11. How are you feeling today?
HOT LA, stomach ache also... needa drink... :)

12. Favourite drink?
Hmmm.... alot... but I'll stick with OooLong Tea!

13. Favourite alcoholic drink?
Flaming Lambos! & Beer

14. Favourite sports?
Soccer, swimming

15. Hair color?
Brown, Red, Gold, Black

16. Eye color?
Brown

17. Do you wear contacts?
No. I'm not pa jiao

18. Siblings and their ages?
1, 15 yr old she-dragon

19. Favourite month?
Septemember!

20. Favourite food?
Everything is a favourite except veggies

21. Last movie you watched?
Scary Movie 3!

22. Favourite day of the year?
13th September

23. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Depends on who.

24. Do you like scary movies or happy endings?
Scary movies, shiok sia... make ur balls kiu!

25. Summer or winter?
WINTER LA DEY!

26. Hugs or kisses?
A warm & fuzzy hug followed by a huge wet kiss! ROFLMAO

28. Chocolate or vanilla?
Chocolate duh...

29. Do you want your friends to write back?
Up to them, I don't force ppl.

30. Who is most likely to respond?
No idea... ;)

31. Who is least likely to respond?
look at Q30.

32. What books are you reading?
FHM, Playboy.... Option Fans...

33. What's on your screen saver?
None, I hate those lame stuff

34. Favourite board game?
HOTEL!

35. What did you do last night?
slept very little only...

36. Favourite smells?
Hugo, Ferragamo, Polo, Burberrys

37. What is the first thing you think of when
you wake up in the morning?
It's gonna be a cool or fucked up day.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:42 PM

I don't know what he does to make you cry
But I'll be there to make you smile
I don't have a fancy car
To get to you I'd walk a thousand miles
I don't care if he buys you nice things
Does his gifts come from the heart?
I don't know
But if you were my girl
I'd make it so we'd never be apart

But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I could live
I wish I could give the world to you
But love is all I have to give

When you talk (when you talk) does it seem like he's not
Even listening to a word you say?
That's okay babe, just tell me your problems
I'll try my best to kiss them all away
Does he leave (does he leave) when you need him the most?
Does his friends get all your time?
Baby please
I'm on my knees
Praying for the day that you'll be mine

To you... (hey girl) hey girl, I don't want you to cry no more inside
All the money in the world could never add up to all the love
I have inside... I love you

And I will give it to you
All I can give, all I can give
Everything I have is for you
But love is all I have to give

But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you
But love is all I have to give... to you

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 1:42 AM

It's November already... Time really flies.... This month is gonna be full of excitment... Why? Cause firstly alot of VIP birthdays coming up. My mom, my bro alf, my mei elaine. 2nd is the results of exams. LOL. don't talk about it. Fucked up man. tmr's paper is see HENG SWAY liao. Data Communication & Networking - Cisco. Fuck man... 2 hr paper... damn sian & I don't even know wtf is the examination hall. Oh hell yyeah!! Haven't study yet. Just got back from zouk, & then somewhere (HAHAHAHAH). din't even get a wink. But it was worth while! 2 Flaming Lambos, Tequila Neat, Beer! ALL FOR A FUCKING GD CAUSE! WAHAHHAHA I think m stomach's getting FLAMED big time... Damn hungry leh..... Heng my parents are at the market now.. Coming back with TONs of FOOD!!! I need food..

My sister's confirmation was nice. Jazreen Eilzabeth Alexis <--- THIS PART SCREW UP k? ALEXIS SUX. the name. JEA wat initals man.. J R is better. :P She was so damn pretty on that night. Never seen her so pretty before. Cause most of the times at home or while I see her, she looks like thrash. ROFLMAO. Nah, just kidding, she's pretty la. Can't say her cause tons of ppl say we look alike. hiakz. :P anyway, u went somewhere to ton. U better fucking come back ASAP. don't drink for me, if not u ain't clubbing with me next time.

Last night was CRAZY MAN!!! zouk was like so fucking empty. I've gotta be honest. FUCKED UP MUSIC!
anyway, the drinks was worth it... midnight madnesss really made someone (hush.. :P) mad. ROFLMAO. So who's the Cai Quan aka, Finger Number Game KING? Who!?!?!??! :D~ this is so funny. laugh until peng.... but 1 thing gd about zouk, the air con there very BA !!! BA means powerful. didn't really rain there, cept for the dance floor... oh well, I promised not to say much about last night, so that's all folks!

I think i'd rather concentrate on my driving... fuck man, this exams are making my blood boil... why can't they just base on class assessment, don't pont lessons to pass the fucking module... knn bo bian!!! who ask my O levels like fuck. HAHA.
This month is gonna be a FUN-FILLED one. So hopefully NOTHING'S spoiling my days to come...

Ok, my parents back... time to eat & sleep. Nites peeps.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 8:58 AM