Tuesday, November 18, 2003

why? why that sudden change in attitude? is it something i've done? i dunno, can somone tell me? i'm willing to do anything just to make it up... cant u be like past few weeks... the gal that i loved talking to... but why? FUCK MAN! WHY!?!?!? WHY AM I SO DAMN FUCKING UNLUCKY!! Cant someone just bang me down & let me forget everything i know? I dont mind taking all these shit... everything's is worth doing for being with u... although it hurts me like fuck to get this shit from u, i dun mind. i promise u that i'll wait for u... i'll do it.... without a doubt. Is it really due to my ill fated life that i've to go through? u wanted time... i never pressured u at all.... until now... cant u at least tell i've never given up.... i'm still holding on... CHANCE is a word that in this world, its gotta be so damn bloody hard to get.... u kknow i dun mind not having the status of us being in a BGR... just that talking at night or msging here & there makes me equally happy... cause i know u're happy too.... if its really not meant to be... i dunno wat else do i have to go through... i wish i was dead & not have to be in this world.... i'll never stop until u're mine.. sounds weird but i guess that's how i put it in my way....u are somone i definetly WILL NEVER EVER FORGET in my life. u made me happy & sad; vice versa. i just wanna be with u... is that really so much to ask? sigh... i dunno.... i guess persistance will never pay off....

signing off, a lost, rejected soul by the name of Jeremy Ryan Ng.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 1:04 AM