Saturday, October 25, 2003

Many ppl have been asking why din't I update my blog. The reason is simple, I din't want to. However, now after 12 days... I've got something to say. The thing I realised is I'm the one for her. Maybe it's my own silly thought. But nevertheless I find her so fragile... so delicate, I would never ever break her apart... That only time is gonna be the FIRST & LAST time ever. She's taking a nap now... Sweet dreams is all I can offer. I won't ask to to dream of me. Think of the positive thoughts that made you who you are. Don't make things difficult for you. Always remember, if no one is willing to offer a shoulder, I WILL without a doubt. You make me wanna know you more... if ever I get the chance to explore who truly you are, I wil go all out for it. I know, LIFE IS NEVER FAIR. Take a look at ur hand, are all 5 fingers the same length & size? No, it's not. I'll be there when you are down. When you're happy, I will never demand you to share it with me, it's all up to u. Most importantly, do things that will make you happy. I know you seek a simple life. But it's not easy to find a simple life. Get used to the rough conditions, the shaky paths, bad weather & so on. Life is Never Ever A Bed of Roses. I know you understand this saying. However, from a lousy terrain you get, there's always a way to make it bloom & grow how you want it to be. I always find the pleasure hearing your problems. Yes, I know I'm never the perfect boyfriend or somebody. But I will like to treat you with all the respect other ppl haven't been doing. Take things in your stride. When there's a need to shift up, U have to. Although you may never know what's in front of you. The only way to learn it's to buang. From that, then you will learn your lessons. I may or may not have the chance to say "I Love You." Only heaven knows what will happen in the future. Take my words seriously. You may say you don't wanna hurt me. But the only person at fault, it's Me, Myself & I. I will blame no one else. I chose this route, I'd rather die then give it up.

Lord, I pray so hard that my family can find happiness. My brothers can love their lives. All those REAL ppl that I've known for the past 18 yrs of my life to stay happy. Lastly, I pray for you... yes you! To open up your eyes to find the things that will make you love your life without regrets. I may sound abit mushy & not like the usual me, but oh well, I don't give a fuck. As long you're REALLY happy. I'm satisfied. Don't cling on a sinking boat, it will never come to a good end.

Honestly, I've fallen so deep for you. There's no way out now... I have never regretted anything I've did so far. Cause I know I can get a good soundly sleep at night. Alright... I'll keep myself busy until 2am... don't wanna break my promise.

Chill peeps.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 1:29 AM