J e r e m y R y a n

when my time comes, i'll never regret whatever i did... after hearing some advice... should i Officially tell her that i'm after her? or do i just wanna remain like now... i mean, its time to move up.... not move on. moving up means going 1 step further... trying to make things work out... but if she herself don't wanto... the best thing for me to do is to just remain as now.... horoscope says that this yr is not gd for love... but frankly speaking, i dun give a shit whether its bad or wat... i will try my very best... to pop her the question 1 fine day... so be it if i'm rejected... i never expect anything in return for putting effort in. she's special . i can take all this shit, its fine with me... for somone as special, beautiful as her... its worth everything i've done... perhaps she really dun have any feelings... not even 1%... if that's the case... my time is really up... nothing's left to be said or done... its over... blown away like a granite explosion... i was never fated to find a good girl... maybe that's just life... i have to live with it... i guess she never really understood where i'm coming from... or wat i'm trying to do.... but its no one's fault. its planned out all like that.... i control my destiny... i dun care if it was meant to happen or not.... i will make something out of nothing.... time is not a factor... i waited for somone like u... u came... but..... take a chance in life... as life is full of chances & opportunities & risk... i'm willing to do that... take the chance n risk it... cause u mean alot to me... i hope i can say this to u "would u be my girlfriend?"

Wish I'd told her how I felt, then maybe she'd be here right now, but
instead...
I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more everyday
And I'm dyin' inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say, the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly, but you're nowhere around
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody know it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside
And nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get, you could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still
The nights are lonely the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me
Yeah, Ohh, uhh, whoa, omom,
Nobody, nobody, but me.....
Tomorrow morning I'm hittin' the dusty road
Gonna find you where ever, ever you might go
And I'm gonna unload my heart
And hope you come back to me
Yeah, sad when the nights are lonely...
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me..

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 2:32 AM

lunar new yr? ok, the red packets... oranges.... food... this n that... meeting up with relatives... talking cock. fuck. wat more? couldn't be this yr more special? i guess its not. who can believe i'm crying now... while blogging? i dun give a fuck if u believe or not... the matter of fact is. i am. i'm crying my heart out.... wat a fucked up chinese new yr..... to most ppl, the iron heart... i dun cry... but i did. i'm crying now..... even at this moment... i dunno wat fucking reasons i'm crying for.... could someone tell me? gong xi fa cai.... fuck this yr....

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 7:55 PM

It's been the 2nd day of sch for me... I know its a long time since I've updated my blog....Anyway, This is gonna be my first Yr 2004 entry. So I try to make it as sweet as possible. I've changed my timetable to be back with my old class... actually I dunno if that was the best thing to do... but i hope things can go smoothly for me... that's all that i wish.... pass my sem 2, go on a holiday n relax... anyway.... i learnt this saying Friends can never be Lovers... i dunno how true is that... but all will come naturally n everyone will find that someone.... Done my tattoo already, although it had some technical error. ROFLMAO. better dun say much. Been through the grinding by my mom... hahaha. I'm gonna get more anyway, who gives a shit. Bros, do it if u want to, DO ANY PICTURE if it pleases u, AS LONG AS U LIKE IT... :D Passed my FTT finally after the 2nd attempt, condolences to kenneth who failed.. :P Hoping to book my practs ASAP then Class 3 here I COME! I wish my family, bros, frds ALL THE BEST this yr. May U Be A Monkey All Year round

ps: Girls always flirt with the Bad Boys but settle down with Good Guys... is it for real?

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 6:39 PM