Friday, January 30, 2004

when my time comes, i'll never regret whatever i did... after hearing some advice... should i Officially tell her that i'm after her? or do i just wanna remain like now... i mean, its time to move up.... not move on. moving up means going 1 step further... trying to make things work out... but if she herself don't wanto... the best thing for me to do is to just remain as now.... horoscope says that this yr is not gd for love... but frankly speaking, i dun give a shit whether its bad or wat... i will try my very best... to pop her the question 1 fine day... so be it if i'm rejected... i never expect anything in return for putting effort in. she's special . i can take all this shit, its fine with me... for somone as special, beautiful as her... its worth everything i've done... perhaps she really dun have any feelings... not even 1%... if that's the case... my time is really up... nothing's left to be said or done... its over... blown away like a granite explosion... i was never fated to find a good girl... maybe that's just life... i have to live with it... i guess she never really understood where i'm coming from... or wat i'm trying to do.... but its no one's fault. its planned out all like that.... i control my destiny... i dun care if it was meant to happen or not.... i will make something out of nothing.... time is not a factor... i waited for somone like u... u came... but..... take a chance in life... as life is full of chances & opportunities & risk... i'm willing to do that... take the chance n risk it... cause u mean alot to me... i hope i can say this to u "would u be my girlfriend?"

Wish I'd told her how I felt, then maybe she'd be here right now, but
instead...
I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more everyday
And I'm dyin' inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say, the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly, but you're nowhere around
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody know it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside
And nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get, you could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still
The nights are lonely the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me
Yeah, Ohh, uhh, whoa, omom,
Nobody, nobody, but me.....
Tomorrow morning I'm hittin' the dusty road
Gonna find you where ever, ever you might go
And I'm gonna unload my heart
And hope you come back to me
Yeah, sad when the nights are lonely...
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me..


posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 2:32 AM