Friday, January 26, 2007

on the way back home from tampines a long journey on bus 81... i kept thinking about what this indian old-timer told me about life...

had dinner with mrs snow after work earlier on... it felt really good, like u know how u wanna go home & rest n just die on bed after a lame day after IAP... but to be with her just eating & walking around despite sweating kinda cured the siansation in me... well, i really hope this last a long long time... i'm sure all my homies know i aint wanna play no more. i'm serious this time :) i really do. so after sending her back, i went over to alf's side for a "last chit chat talk cock session". my bro's gonna be at thailand for a damn long 3 weeks man... so weird, but i know i'll be missing him. he's my bro afterall... bon voyage alf. take care.

now... while alf was telling me about his cousin vin & gf sheryn... in the midst of talking, this old timer came to talk to us outta the blue... he said to me "life will be fun, smooth sailing if u take it easy & relax... if u wanna think so much n dun let go of certain stuff, it will haunt u n hold u back... y bother about so much problems, thinking so much when u can just live in the moment... sitting down with friends are most impt, as u can tell them ur problems. but, not all your friends are friends, most of them can go fuck off. u're still young, i've past ur phase in life... trust me my frd, take it slowly... learn to enjoy life. its all about U deciding how u wanna pass it as the years goes by..."

all i did was just to "lookout" for his smoking table outta courteousy as he asked me before he went to pee. yeah he was drinking, but defintely sober to the max. so he kinda overheard the conversation between alf n i on vin's issue which is kinda not important, but will comment about it shortly... & the best part was, before kev & gf came to meet us, he told me, "i like u boy, u are a jolly lad who's very relax about life." hmmm... yeah i guess this is wat most ppl think when they see me or know me for a while... everyone thinks jr's so chilled like eski bar.. well only i know it myself if i'm chilled anot, but i dun deny, demons are haunting me every other night too.

regarding vin's issue... apparently a 3rd party came between sheryn & him... n tat guy told vin, "i only know sheryn for 1 month but i can capture her heart, U ARE USELESS" hmmm by right, by law i guess i'll fucking punch him straight in his jaw. dun fuck with me will be my wake up call (sheesh, i sound like a rapper LOL :p) but i dunno leh, i think even by punching him, if i was his situation, sheryn might not also give a damn about me? hmmm well if this really happen, do i follow wat the timer said & let it go? this is a open discussion, feel free to leave comments on my cbox. thank you.

lastly, thank you for all the comments, fiona, jo, viv, winx... although winx's not really related at all... but its kinda heart warming, when i recieve comments from my frds... it shows, they really do give a fuck by reading my stuff... thank you so much.. gotta still say this before i sleep, BRO TAKE FUCKING GOOD CARE OF URSELF. it's thailand w/o us, me & ben. 3 weeks aint short bro. i am gonna miss u.

ps: this is just for mrs snow, i know we just started, not even the honeymoon thingy over yet or wat... but i really wanna build a damn good foundation... i'm just the typical virgo perfectionist. so to everyone, if i appear too rash or impatient or watever crap... if i did piss any of u off, sincerely my apologies...

good night, TGIF. IAP week 10... finally... tmd~

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 12:08 AM