Sunday, May 09, 2004

as usual, just got home & bathed. ready to jump to bed any moment. but yet i still have to blog this out. was at chinablack today, dint really enjoyed myself though. with ch, adelene & her frds. felt something was missing. but ya, found many answers to questions that i always thought of. unexpected stuff. most of them were actually sad ones. however, i guess my old bean is right, Life is Never Fair once again. all 5 fingers aint the same length. u know, the Baby - Ai Qing Bu Neng Zuo Bi Jiao song is so damn right. here's a little translation of the chorus in english. "he's very gd, he's so gd. all this doesnt matter to me. to forget the passion i gave to u in a hug that he cant give. ya he's really so good that can make u stay with him. but love can't be compared." been hearing it when driving home. there are so much things that u dunno, but once u find it out, it hurts like hell. perhaps i only can procrastinate, complain about this & that. that's wat so "good" about me. another sleepless night for me. come to think of it, i'm so used to this life now. prolly i can work for the police on road blocks. the bird which doesnt need to sleep. oh well, kc, hope the CI Boys worked out & enjoy tmr's modelling. kinda felt i broke my promise to just fetch the 1 & only 1 girl whom is her.adelene asked for a lift home. no excuse to break my promise. but, to realise something else that happened earlier in the day was shocking to me. took me by surprise once again. argh, damn. now i agree why ppl say Life is like a box of Chocolates, U will never know what's inside. evelyn, her frd, once said to me. "i rather my bf doesnt have a car, if not god knows wtf he is fetching all the time." things ppl kinda affects my head too. guess that, No One is Wrong, No One is Right. everyone has their own opinions. tearin' up my heart so bad yet feelings still the same. sigh. love is tough. but i fell for it. however, no regrets. worth every effort & time spent. sigh.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 5:45 AM