Friday, April 16, 2004

as i said, time flies. my IT1820 Electrical Fundamentals common test is tmr. havent study a single shit for it though. couldnt care less to be honest. 5 more days... the countdown is getting nearer & nearer. yes bros, understood wat u guys plan. i also hope the plan comes true. Mount Faber here we come! the world out there is too big for anyone to gobble it up. no one knows wat will happen next time. only god knows who, when, why, where, what & how. the 5 wives & 1 husband logic. got a feeling this update of mine will be very rojak dunno y leh... like very compressed. installed the blow off valve liao, to get rid of the pressure built in.

$ topic. hopefully my income will grow again cause just heard from my dad that GainCity sales is back & that means BMT is back for we bros again. lots of shit happened when always we work there. mostly the shit moulds our brotherhood to be stronger... all the Sweat, Stench, Smoke, Starvation, Slack technically sums up our workplace. feels gd to work with my bros once again, work with those seniors again... theres always something new to learn everyday, being it in work or sch or home. lastly, the ultimate satisfaction is to earn my own keeps & spending it wisely & meaningfully... :)

Ang Kong topic. I have told my designer Miss Dot Neo that my right leg is fully hers to design & maintain. ever since jeremEy's creation, I found out that he's been so lonely. thats his life, just like his owner. Isolated, Cold, Lonely, Life & Love less. However, now he's 1 very happy kartoon, living there on the right... as my designer promised, a partner will be created & background all of these just a nice picture. I'm dying to see the outcome of this huge picture. let me dream tonight.

conclusion coming soon.... i just dun wanna think of all the fuck that might come & hit me so hard... actually i wanna fuck care everything & just rot away like a log. but i found out, now there's somebody out there whom i'm loving so seriously & strongly. she's the one who's herself with me, go through stuff with me... it kinda shook my mind when there were 2 point of views to the situation i'm in. 1 said - he's very dumb & stupid to still persist on w/o any success at all. i dun see why i cant wait. I WILL cause I WANT YOU BAD . another 1 said - i see no point of backing off, watever he's done is true & sincere. firstly, thanks for the both POVs. here's wat i gotta say now.

we both know, the trust is not there 100% yet... but watever i said so far is real. i mean it. when i told u things i do or never do, its all true. if not, emotions will be a word w/o no meaning. i like it when u are true to me cause the feeling of getting it back is always good. i guess its just the little n simple things i can offer to u for now which might make u feel contented being with me. tried to ignore u for a day, but it only made me feel like fuck. cant control my feelings for you. i wish i can have the chance to tell u how much i love you. i like the way u are, everything about you. i lost part of my life out there, & u completed it... love you.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 2:39 AM