Tuesday, April 20, 2004

Happy 47th Birthday Dad!! hope u like the present i got you. nice chocolate cake right? we all know u love chocos. Thanks for being there for me for the past 19yrs. i hope our dad-son relationship becomes stronger & stronger as the years come. I will always remember all the stuff u taught me from young. All ur principles in life have made me who I am today. Blogging while eating the cake now. U will love it too. Just really wanna say a huge THANKS DAD! for everything. I LOVE YOU

13hrs time is my Traffic Police Class 3 Test. yes, i'm fucking nervous. i'm not a born winner in life. but i wanna pass it for the first time. make myself proud of something at least. i'll remember wat my "gan ma", michael, hong, senior ong & all the malay instructors that taught me. u ppl made me learn more in life besides driving alone. thank you. i owe u guys alot. thanks for teaching me all the bits & pieces of driving & at the same time part & puzzles of life that a young teenager like me have to go through. i look up to u instructors, my teachers. thank you. God Bless Me, May I Pass My Test Tmr.

i wanna thank also to those ppl that i treated truly & honestly. Bros, dun say i neglected u all. Dun ever feel that way ok. Its not about bachelor life or wat. Yes we 3 know we are destined to be loners. I know. But how am i to explain to u, wat am i feeling for her now. Sorry Bros if i made u guys feel that way... thanks shu xian, mei - sze hui for helping me with my sch work. thanks classmates out there for offering a helping hand in this. i took u guys for granted i think, i'm sorry. all i can say is thank you.

now is for the person i have never love so much before.once in a lifetime... i got to know u... been through so many things with u, yet i still took u for granted & showed my attitude to u. y did i ask such a question - WAT AM I TO U? i lost my head. the msges that followed tore my heart into pieces. seeing ur reply to me almost got me BROKEN DOWN. I AM SO SORRY. i'm human afterall, i'm trying so hard to sacrifice & change, but all u can say is NOT WORTH IT. y must u say that to me... deep down u know it urself, I LOVE YOU. i remember the msg u sent me, [ no one falls in love by choice, its by chance. no one stays in love by chance, its by work. no one falls out of love by chance, its by choice.] Ok, i'll take it its by chance that I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU. ya, i'm WORKING VERY HARD NOW for us to STAY IN LOVE. but the hardest thing that hit me was that U rather CHOOSE to fall out of it. I DUN WANT THAT TO HAPPEN. u dun have to break my fall, dun have to say things to divert my attention. I told u from the start. I place u on TOP because U are IMPORTANT TO ME. i just dun understand why u cant feel it... it hurts so bad. As long i can make u Happy, make u Smile, make ur Heart Contented, i dun regret anything. Thanks for everything too, like u always say. I MISS YOU.

This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up

I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always




posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 8:50 PM