Wednesday, August 10, 2005

there are many faults in me without a shout of a doubt i dont deny. yes i know i'm a heavy smoker & drinker. i drink n drive, i swear alot... yet i've been trying to cut down on everything. i know there's no one perfect out there. lets put in terms of BGR. perhaps i dunno if i'm too possessive, over care n concern... every single time, i encounter this... wtf is wrong with me? could someone just tell me. be like my brolls, anything just say come out. be frank & open with me... what is the end result gonna be? i live by the principle, u get wat u give. yet i know its kinda impossible in this world. no one will get back whatever they give. in this world, u just have to continue giving n giving until u drop dead. its so contradicting at times when i look back. i have learnt that theres no logical explanation for anything we do. to what extend should we do this? should we do that? must we just close 1 eye in everything? i kinda cant live with it... if things are so simple, then its really not called life. had a few beers just now, had some feedback from my "uncle"... absorbed some points, rejected some points. i found out after so long, i'm still immature. i never learn from my mistakes... i dun wanna go back to JR 99-00. must i really be a jiao lang to survive in this world? someone pls fuck me up hard. depressed.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 3:30 AM