Monday, March 14, 2005

this perhaps will be 1 of my longest since the last time i blogged...

where am i? i'm in school right now having my java night class. well... 13 weeks of study have passed by so fast then i still think i'm in week 1. rofl. truthfully i dun even understand a single fuck that have been taught so far in any module. as usual, i get my projects "done" long before the submission time. i might not be able to learn anything from it however i dun give 2 shit cause i admit that i'm plain lazy to do anything about studying. :)

come to think of it, i might have regretted coming into this school & this course. sometimes i feel my non-existence in class whenever theres something to do. i thought that i might have the chance to learn something from this diploma. yet i realised not. what is actually Multimedia Infocomm Technology? sounds gd yeah? i think polys are just a whole load of bull. i always say never regret doing something, yet why do i think i made a huge mistake in choosing in this course. based on my O levels results back then, i could pratically go any poly, any course. but yet due to my over-laziness i chose NYP & got to stuck in this puddle of shit. or actually a whole bucket full of it... :)

hmmm, i just got my specialisation outcome. i'm gonna do web-based. to me, any of the fucking yr3 routes doesnt really matter. what matters is i get the fucking diploma & fuck outta here. never look back for sweet or bitter memories. everyone seems like a empty shell. the inconsistent mood swings & attitude problems of some interest & yet irritates me. i guess for my case, i will contradict in every sentence i say.... why is it i have so much to type & to continue rattling on despite the bored, whiny posts that JR usually does... i just think ppl are just so hypocritical. fake to be exact. :)

i'm very proud to say i'm always myself. i draw a very clear line on what i like & what i dont. i will always prevent myself from going into a losing battle. i never like dragging stupid things on & on however yet i also think too much before even attempting it. its like, physically i'm with the class at times... but mostly i'm outta there. flying into space. drifting away to my own fantasy. end of the day, i lose out. why? cause i'm not enthu enough? or shall i put it this way, fake enough? :)

what will be the road for me in the future? ha. continue smoking, drinking, sleeping, slacking? i see no future staying in singapore. this is a never ending shit hole. u can keep digging & more shit will pile on top of you. the mentality of ppl simply can kiss my ass. the self-scented, proud, fucked up attitude. actions reflect truly how someone's personality is. what the person wants in life, what the person like or dont. btw, i hate it when ppl use my logics in life. the way i go through life. if they wanna use it, FUCKING HELL use it properly. DO NOT make it look like crap just like u... :)

well, i know my lecturer is looking at me right now, but do i really give a damn? roflmao. i think i prolly shall stop blogging now & just gotta seat back & relax. i'm a sinner, aint a saint.

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 7:01 PM