Monday, January 16, 2006

i'm feeling kinda rolley today. the head machiam rollercoaster like that... up down up down... i've been wondering, what have i achieved so far from 2005 until now.... hmmm, actually nothing right? not say i earn my 1st million, drove my 1st evo or some shit... in studies which i always suck at, i did not get a single A. to be exact, i dun get As. i prefer Cs & Ds. shant talk about studies much, anyway also nth to talk about. such a boring topic. Study Til U Die Younger. ok, other interests... my ang kong also never complete... when u got a naggy mom who bios ur leg 24/7 how to complete even u got an uncle who's there to complete it for u. lol. how ironic. so this one also cannot finish, cannot force... another thing, smoking SG cigs are expensive balls... all my lobang for phillipines, malaysia, indonesia all like machiam gone... then how? smoke SG $10 1 pack lor. lanlansiaosiao. also never achieve anything once again. wats next... hmm... i work like a dog for propnex, 1 night 4 hrs, 4 hrs = $24, 1 month most i can get is $350. cb. cant even pay installment. pay lj hp bill, then those wu eh bo eh, gone liao. most to most pump petrol & cigs its finito man. however if 3.5k then its a fucking diff story. JRevo will be at the carpark of blk 118. knn i swear i will own 1 evo during ns period or immediately after ORD. knn studying make me fucking sian n du lan liao. especially when u have a laocb maths lecturer who's so fucking BORING & WHORING. knn heard from previous batch of hers, she had a HOT PINK streak. knn u're a fucking AH MA LEH. WAKE UP UR FUCKING IDEA LA. cb i wonder is i sway or wat. y cant all lecturers be like Dr Chan, Khoo Kc, George, Angeline... make our life easier cum urs too. u pass me u lesser work to do, i fuck outta the poly, prolly not remembering u vice versa. tio boh? cb repeat module means i'm dumb meh? give me lanjiao time slot like today 10-11 lecture, 2-3 tutorial. knn then 11-2 limbeh do wat? find girl fuck sibo. jiao wei leh. i was happy that i did complete my repeated IT security & database paper yet kinda sad to pass up blank for Maths & Open source. i damn half fuck one always. always swee swee, then in the end give up. knn i think is because of such attitude make me cannot chase girls too. nb! hai JR ah JR... no one can help u unless u help urself. if i minus dotaing, driving, drinking... i think i'm just an ordinary guy out there. cause dota increases my ego day by day, match by match... driving increases my awarness, sensitivity, senses everytime i get behind the wheel... always looking for a higher speed to corner... then drinking makes my liver worst... drink liao wont seh. thats the fucking prob. nb where got ppl drink wont seh. sometimes i wanna be seh. be a lanjiao stereotyped, pay to get wasted. at least i can sleep at ease w/o thinking of other things. but how hard i try also wont seh. pcb. i think on the surface machiam i'm damn strong like that, like happy go lucky, fuck care attitude. but every single day i'm facing denial too... ming ming i like a few individuals out there yet i dun wanna chase. can happily get tied down, but i choose otherwise yet complaining after my decision. how knn can i get? ahaha. always ask myself y no gf cause lj attitude mah... so heck care, even girl show interest i also act blur. but really la... i dun see myself like those REAL PPL out there. thats y now i also begin to ack ack ji eh. bo bian, knn i realised if I DUN ACK, I DUN ACHIEVE. must ACK XIO PAT with everyone, ACK JI EH FRDLY, ACK EVERY POSSIBLE ACK. knn. thats y i bought my first jacket of my life. ADIDAS ESPANA WORLD CUP 2006 jacket. i so scared of hot, always sweat y in the hell i pay $120 to get hot right? ACK MAH, buy red so can HUAT during the new year! HUAT ZAI AH! NABEI! doggie year so must HUAT AH HUAT. woof woof. hmmm... back the topic, i seriously havent really achieve anything leh. fucking loser. not say my lancer is the fastest in sg... not say my grades are the best in MIT... not say my dick is the biggest to all the pussies... aiyo... what should i do man... i never plan any new year resolutions cause eventually they are just words of fuck that i prolly wont remember a single shit. new year resolutions can never be solutions. they are just there to make urself guilty. i remember once new year resolution, stop drink driving. in the end, i still did it. n kena tio blow job meter. haha. heng heng is pass la. but resolution mah, y still do? cause i'm a WEAK FUCK. aiya... more i type more du lan. dunno y. just like do everything also not positive like that. knn here also no use. thats y the change will be coming. when i start earning big bucks by the end of this week. hope this mentor of my will show me the light... knn once those cash are in my hands, everything is secondary man. MONEY my frds, MONEY is the KEY to everything... if its not for MONEY, why will ppl study? y will ppl pia so hard during work? nabei. i dun wanna blog liao. cause i make the difference, not any mofo out there or by blogging. SJR 13N I SWEAR I WILL WORK MY FUCKING GUTS OUT JUST TO BRING U OUT. i will fucking MAINTAIN THIS MONSTER of mine. let u drink all the V Power n not feel inferior to anything else. ARGH!!! FUCK STUDIES, HERE COMES THE MONEY MAN!

posted by Jeremy Ryan @ 4:35 AM